Hi idk anymore!
Regarding Sam's really good advice to you: one of the best ways to make new friends is by inserting yourself into a group that is bound to meet regularly, for a number of hours, and for a longish duration of time, like a class or a reading group. I always recommend foreign language classes, because they're super heavy on interaction among learners, and they demand regularity. Additionally, once you get your feet wet in a foreign language, you'd be encouraged to seek out, say, virtual opportunities to practice with native speakers. There's apps for that, which connect you to individuals from whichever country's language you're learning, and many wonderful connections can be built on those as well! Reading groups are also great for interaction and finding fun people, because they're very discussion-heavy. Do you like to read? And of course, volunteering at places is also great for making new friends, if you can commit to the responsibility right now. All of these activities have virtual (and even free!) counterparts, of course, and those are great also because they can technically bring you outside of your small town, and maybe even outside of your country!
As for getting comfortable with being alone--since you're new to training yourself into developing this very important attitude (which I think literally everyone on this earth must, and does develop at some point in their life, to whatever degree they can), you could try filling your time with hobbies! Reading and watching movies and listening to music are common and very fulfilling hobbies, of course, but since they're basically media consumption, they ultimately may leave you feeling empty when the movie ends or the book gets boring, etc. This is why you should also get into hobbies that don't involve media consumption, such as say collecting stuff (stamps, marbles, dried flowers, pretty rocks, if that sounds interesting), making stuff (cooking, painting, woodwork, sewing/embroidering, gardening, etc.), caring for animals (is there a local animal shelter in your town that you could volunteer at? Could you maybe adopt a pet, or offer to walk/take care of other people's pets if they need that kind of help?), or outdoorsy stuff (sports, hiking, etc.). Do any of these options sound attractive or feasible?
Also, here's an article that I found in my teens and absolutely LOVED: https://www.thecut.com/2014/08/ask-poll ... e-20s.html
. It's meant for a different age group, but a lot of the advice in here is great for literally anyone who's struggling to find friendly connections, no matter how old they are. Give it a read, and let me know if it spoke to you!
P.S. i like what you named this thread lol