This really freakin' sucks!! I'm really sorry to hear that! Though I'm happy to hear that you've at least escaped the abuse and have been able to live away from it (hopefully?) for the last two years. How has your heart been lately?So I'm in my thirties and all my relationships have been pretty abusive. I've not been with anyone for two years. This makes me feel pretty shit and I'm working on understanding that it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with me & I'm getting there.
No need to apologize, it's totally understandable! I think what's helpful to keep in mind about labels is that the words you use to describe yourself to the world may not be perfectly accurate to the many different textures you experience within, but they are helpful placeholders to tell the world what it is you want to communicate about yourself for the time being. I identify as bisexual because I figure it's the least complicated way to tell other people I'm attracted to more than one gender without the additional baggage of using a lesser-known and minorly controversial term like 'pansexual.' What about the term "asexual" or "aromantic" feels like a good representation of the sexual/romantic behavior you plan to approach dating with? And by the way, I don't think there's anything inherently invasive about socializing in ace spaces when you're questioning. But if a person is put off by the label you use to describe yourself or the way you go about exploring your identity, that's a good indicator that they're not good companyCan I use the term aromantic? I feel like a phoney because I really become sexually attached to people, though it's rare, but I think that may be influenced by amatonormativity. Using the term panics me because I don't wanna shut myself off from people because I love very deeply. However, I feel like a failure everyday because I've never been loved by a safe person (which sounds like abuse trauma! Sorry just figured that out).
Let's talk about this. Why, to all these things? Talk about why these terms appeal to you, what they mean to you, who gave them to you. Why is it important that these relationships never close? Why is it important that these partners be your "friends"? What does that mean to you, versus having this kind of relationship with a bf/gf/partner?What I want is to use terms coined by aromantic people, such as 'amatonormativity', and 'relationship anarchy', never close my relationships and live close by friends who I love and love me, who I can be sexual & intimate with.
This really freakin' sucks!! I'm really sorry to hear that! Though I'm happy to hear that you've at least escaped the abuse and have been able to live away from it (hopefully?) for the last two years. How has your heart been lately?
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