I'm really struggling with an ongoing situation involving my parents and I would love any feedback or support that y'all might have. The gist is that 6 months ago I went to my mom to tell her about the growth that I was engaged in (much of it having to do with coming to terms with past experiences of sexual assault). My mom reacted in a mildly non-supportive manner, in which she turned the conversation around to herself and imposed her views of the world/sexual assault onto my story. For the next 6 months, I tried a handful of times to tell her how she was hurting me and ask for her support and curiosity about my lived experiences, but these conversations got met with increasing hostility and defensiveness. At one point, she told me that I was "fundamentally wrong in my perceptions" and that she "wasn't curious about my experiences". Ooof. She also began to gaslight me and after months of feeling crazy and confused, I asked for some space. This hasn't been well-received, as you might imagine, so my mom and my dad started to threaten to stop helping me with rent (I'm a full time student and can only work 15 hours/week) if I didn't start communicating with them. They told me that my distance felt "dirty" and like I wasn't trying to mend the relationship, despite me telling them over and over that taking space is a decision with the longevity of our relationship in mind. They keep telling me that I have a choice, but I truly don't-- if I want to have a roof over my head next month, I need to start talking to them again even though doing so is so harmful at this moment. My parents' coercion is especially hitting a nerve because of my past experiences with sexual assault-- I didn't have a voice to say no, but I was told that I had a choice. I didn't. You never truly do when your body is being violated. This is bringing up a lot of that and so I am full of rage. I want to scream NO for all of the ways that my boundaries and my voice hasn't been respected, but I don't know how to do it when the reality is that I'm still financially dependent on my parents for rent. I also don't know how to express my anger in healthy ways because anger has been an emotion that I've been terrified of my entire life. Any advice is appreciated!