Heads up, this is kind of a rant in the beginning.
I keep having these dreams where I'm talking to my ex-boyfriend, and even worse, I'm apologizing fro the mistakes he made! Like, he's the one who manipulated me and played with my emotions. He's the one who initiated everything then called it all off. And his "apology" was complete BS. He left me feeling violated and upset, and as though I had done something wrong. It took me months to realize I hadn't.
Now I'm with my new boyfriend who is wonderful and romantic, cares about me, and lets me be myself. But deep down I struggle to realize that he is a completely different person than my ex. I always fear that one day he'll toss me aside like an old toy, just like my ex did. Logically, I know this won't happen. (My current boyfriend is always saying how lucky he is to be with me, and planning romantic things for the future, etc.) But I just hate that these trust issues are still there. How do I let go and trust my boyfriend completely? There's no reason for me not to. How do I stop thinking about my toxic ex-boyfriend? It's really messing with my head, and I don't want it to mess up my current relationship either.