So I'd like to preface that I don't experience crushes/romantic attraction often, and the feelings can be a bit hard to identify for me? I don't think I'd say I'm aro or anything, because I do want a relationship pretty bad?
Now to get into the actual meat of the post, I've felt like I might be developing feelings for a friend of mine but I'm not quite sure what to do about it. I've had incredibly little relationship experience, with my only experience coming earlier this year, being initiated by the opposite party, someone I wasn't extremely into in retrospect, and seemingly being mutually weird. In this situation I'm very unsure of what to do because I honestly don't know if they're that into me? On top of that, they're turning 18 soon while I'll be 16 in a few weeks or so putting a two year age gap in between us, which if we were a bit older I doubt I'd notice, however 2 years is a large-ish amount of time seeing as we're much younger.
Both of us are trans, with them being nb and wanting to present more masculine, while I'm a trans woman, which complicates things slightly, seeing as I'm still not really sure how attracted I am to masculine presenting people. I find the way they currently present attractive, but I'd feel weird about seeking a relationship out depending on where exactly they'd like to end up presentation-wise because I don't really think that would be fair to them.
I'm not entirely sure to what extent this plays in but as both of us id as lesbians we've talked a good amount about how frustrating it can be that there's so few queer women in our area, which makes any sort of dating especially hard. I have wondered if I've felt like this specifically because of that, but I highly doubt this is all just me sort of picking someone as a last resort
At this point my basic questions are A) am I overconcerned about the age gap bit at all? B) how standard are my concerns I suppose? Like is this stuff ordinary to worry about when you develop feelings for someone? I highly doubt that I'll ever tell them my feelings in full, and even then it's unlikely that I'd pursue a relationship with them if that can help add any context to the post.