Some background information: I'm a senior in high school, we probably won't be back to in-person learning until after I graduate, I'm aromantic and polyamorous. I'm also non-binary, I have several squishes (all unreciprocated), and want to go on E at some point but can't at the moment because my parents wouldn't be okay with it.
Some of the uncertainty I have about the future is due to being worried that I won't have anyone in my life and that I'll be alone. It's not just being worried about being single, that I'd be totally fine with. What I'm worried about is not having any friends or a partner who are very close (physically and emotionally both). One of the weird things quarantine has done is it's made me consider all of the fantasies I have of the future but also all the worst-case scenarios. One specific example is that my dream scenario for the future would basically just be living with a bunch of friends and/or qpps. I didn't really realize that would be my dream future until quarantine happened. The thing I'm worried about is being alone and not being able to get hormones or even have people who support and care for me, and what's scaring me is I'm increasingly worried that that's what I'm headed towards. It's become way more real that I might lose contact with people that I don't know how to cope without. They're the people who I always used as the reason to keep going and I knew I could count on for help.