Not going to lie when I say that being homeschooled + attending college (I'm still 16 though) kinda has its downsides. For example, in a way, I can't date. All of my classmates are out of my age range and so, for my own safety, I stay away. I've tried meeting people my age online, but it never works. I feel like I'm reallt missing out on the "teen experience" (because I also haven't lost my virginity either, but since I'm in a Christian household, I most likely couldn't, even though I plan to before marriage).
I feel pretty lonely and I want to experience with people for once. I know that having a relationship might be adding too much on my plate (you know, because college), but still, I want to try it.
Also, I think my friend is alright, but I don't like him the way he likes me. I'm afraid of using him to lose my virginity, so, I try to stay as platonic as I can when I talk to him. Honestly, I don't know if this is a vent or not, but I'm just tired of being single and I want to have a healthy relationship with someone I share the same feelings with.
(Also, sorry for any typos)