I want to contact (and when I mean contact, I mean video call) more people, especially old friends and new people, specifically in the USA, where I live. I got all the resources, people and more time now that school is off, however ...
I don’t for some reason contact them. I often forget or think things such as “do they care about me” or “ehhh, they are busy anyways”. When I feel lonely, for some reason I don’t contact them or want to video call them, I just want to retreat. I don’t have depression, I have intrusive thoughts that conflict with my desires with low self-esteem.
I have a meeting with a club that I am doing at 2 PM PST, I am involved in a film project and I even asked my crush to video chat (which I am very worried about whether she will respond and say yes or no). However, I really want to keep and make close relationships, especially with one person, as I feel its mainly me, my parents and sister, but mainly my parents are my closest relationship during the quarantine.
So how do I? I care about that stuff and I really do want to keep in touch, especially when I may go back soon. I really don’t want to be so lonely.