My name is Cassidy, I'm 19, and I've never posted here before. While searching for answers to my problem I found this site, and it looks like my question is a pretty common one, but I haven't found a story that matches mine enough.
Basically, I feel zero pleasure from masturbation or sex. None. Nada.
Yes, I've tried to put myself in the proper headspace. Yes, I've. read up on techniques and guides. Yes, I've tried with "no expectations". Nothing has worked whatsoever.
For some background:
I've barely ever tried masturbating until about three years ago. I really never felt the need (even though I do feel arousal) but, at the age of sixteen I figured I would give it a shot. I noticed right away no matter what I did I didn't feel anything pleasureable. Whatever, I just assumed I was doing it wrong. Since then I have tried, and tried, and tried. Nothing. So I gave up again for a bit and basically didn't think about it.
Now I'm in a relationship. My partner and I are both women, we've been together for nearly seven months now. I think she's absolutely beautiful, and I am very attracted to her. However, when we became intimate . . . nothing. At this point we've tried just about everything we can think of and still no result. It feels the same as rubbing my arm or my leg, I don't feel any kind of sexual spark or enjoyment. Basically, it's the same as when I tried to masturbate.
Since nothing happens when we try with me, I always end up just pleasuring her and calling it a day. She can actually enjoy it, after all. From what I can tell, our experience in the bedroom is nothing alike. I'm zero and she's a hundred.
I desperately want to be able to enjoy being intimate like she does, it looks so fun but yet I just can't. It's at the point where I've cried over the situation because I just feel like something's wrong with me and I can't fix it.
If it provides any more helpful information, I have severe depression and take the antidepressant Prozac (fluoxetine). However, as far as I understand, it's not known to cause symptoms like this. I've also tried to use a vibrator (8 speeds and 20 rhythyms) and still felt nothing. I ended up giving it to my girlfriend.
Maybe I'm at the point where I need to seek a medical professional, I just really don't know and I need your help. Thanks.