Hi
I'm a 17 year old transmasc nonbinary person, and for as long as I've been masturbating, I've never been able to enjoy it. I'm asexual, so my enjoyment of sexual acts is a bit different than most people's, but I do genuinely want to enjoy them. I don't feel the need to masturbate very often, but when I do, it's a pretty strong urge.
The problem is, I have never been able to find a way to masturbate that actually feels good, and it's resulted in me feeling incredibly frustrated. Vaginal penetration feels good for a moment, but in less than thirty seconds I essentially go numb to it. Anal penetration doesn't do anything for me either. My clitoris either has no feeling or is so sensitive that I can't handle it, never anything in between. I've tried touching it through clothes but the problems still persist. My breasts also aren't sensitive in the slightest. I'm also not in a situation where I can engage in sexual acts with my current partners, and I doubt they'd be able to help as I can't even seem to figure myself out.
I've read through so many articles and so much advice trying to find something that will work for me, but I've yet to find anything. I'm tired of feeling frustrated with my own sexual urges and being unable to do anything about them. I want to be able to engage in and enjoy sex, but I'm unsure of how to progress from here. Is there anything I should try to do, or should I just accept that I can't enjoy sex even though I genuinely want to?