yeah, i might try to be friends i guess. after a while, i think i would feel weird seeing him again right now - i actually told him i was gonna be away, lol. and you're right, i think most people aren't happy with "hookup culture", even people who do hookups. weird how "friends with benefits" relationships have a worse reputation in terms of casual sex, but honestly, imo, having sex with friends is a lot better and less...i don't know, empty. i think...love isn't about sex, but sex is about love, even if it's not romantic love. i'm just a very impulsive person, and i often do things i know i'll regret, like, just because i can. but i think i needed to try it just once, and now i won't wonder. thanks, i think i just needed someone to talk at and like...process this whole thing, because it was not in character for me and i spent a few days just like, what.