So I’ve been dating my boyfriend for nine months now, and our relationship is great. We have been focusing on spending quality time together more, instead of sexual things. And for a while that was great. (Clarification: it is still great in our relationship but not in the, um, sex department)
It’s been a month since we tried oral/manual sex. We’ve only done that like three times (and one unsuccessful time), and the most recent time was a bit... traumatizing. I thought I wanted sexy stuff but I guess I was feeling overwhelmed and ended up using my bf as stress relief. I felt bad after.
Additionally, my bf is naturally an indecisive person - he gets horny sometimes but not as much as me, and I think he’s nervous to try again.
I really want him to finger me! I’m tired of masturbating and I don’t want someone else to do me because I want to be monogamous with my bf right now. I need him to finger me because I’m so damn thirsty.
I asked him about it today and he was on the fence about it. First he was saying he wanted quality time instead and I misunderstood and thought he meant no sex at all. But then he clarified and said he wants us both to think about it for a week before we do anything. But I’ve been thinking about it for a whole month or longer!!!! Argh I want to scream.
I know it’s just a week but I don’t want to masturbate - I want him to finger me. I can’t get any sex toys either and I’m in a goddamn boarding school so I have to be quiet when I fuck myself.
I guess I’ll wait a week but... I really wanted it tonight or tomorrow. I told him this but he seemed really hesitant and wants to wait a week. I feel like crying. I know he loves me and I want to spend quality time with him to. But I also want the sex stuff. I was patient - I waited a whole month. And I haven’t asked to suck his dick or for anything else - I just want to be fingered and talked to in a dirty way.
I don’t want to force him but I want him! Not anyone else right now - him! Why couldn’t he just have said yes for tonight?