Hi Letmebe,
Having a whirlwind of mixed emotions is one of many completely normal responses to an abortion. There's a section in
this article a ways down called Abortion Aftercare, which may be helpful - it talks about some of the things to expect in the days following your abortion.
People report just about every feeling after abortion - relief, sadness, joy, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, confusion, and more. None of these feelings are wrong to have. In addition to the emotions that come with making this decision, having an abortion can also cause some pretty big hormonal changes in your body, so your feelings might be even stronger than they would be ordinarily.
If it would be helpful, I invite you to share your emotions and thoughts here. We're here to support you, no matter how you're feeling. I also want to check in on your self-care. What kinds of
self-care do you usually do, physically and emotionally? Does anything from that article sound like it might be comforting today?
You deserve all the kindness, support, and love right now - not just from others, but from yourself, too. <3