Do you think that your family would judge you or react badly? Would you have somewhere to keep it and use it that was fairly private?
For what it's worth, there is absolutely nothing wrong or shameful about wanting to explore and enjoy your body, or using sex toys to do that. In fact, I'd say it sounds kinda exciting!
We can talk if you want about ways you might be able to get a sex toy if you like, but we also have this article about other things you can safely use as sex toys: D.I.Y. Sex Toys: Self-Love Edition