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by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Apr 14, 2020 5:22 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I do think it helps at least a little to know, thank you. Hopefully talking that through a little and ensuring that concern is heard will be helpful as well, I feel pretty nervous about saying it, like saying I'm worrying about faking it, so it's really nice to hear it's common. It's strange how eas...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Apr 14, 2020 4:48 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Thank you, Mo, It's nice to hear at least someone else sees it, at a time where I'm struggling to. I'm glad I got into therapy when I did, however, starting back in October kind of gives me a false timeline which can be really hard to remember. Yeah, I was in therapy, but my situation was getting pr...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Mon Apr 13, 2020 4:16 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Alrighty, so I had therapy today and I really hope they move it off just a phone call for a number of reasons. The biggest one being that I have an issue with masking things when I talk about it in person, and although I try SO hard not to do it, it’s become a tactic I’ve really relied on over the y...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sun Apr 12, 2020 6:57 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I so hope I can get there too. But for now it’s still nice to know that I’m not alone with the remembering pieces in time. Also, that helps to know, for right now my mom will be with for the first and last bit of the session but I think I certainly keep that in mind if things get hard to talk about....
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 11, 2020 5:21 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11067

Re: Struggling with dating apps

Yeah, that makes sense and I’m really sorry you’re dealing with that. You’re certainly not alone in that. I certainly get the whole piece of feeling you were finally getting out of that rut and making progress that way. But also, everyone is having to adjust and however you do that is okay. There’s ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 11, 2020 2:48 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11067

Re: Struggling with dating apps

Usually when you don’t have permissions like you’re saying, the thread has an “introduce yourself” section or something where you usually have to talk to the moderators so they can get the basic ideas of who you are but it depends. I haven’t done it a whole bunch, I’m in two servers, one for youth m...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 11, 2020 12:34 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11067

Re: Struggling with dating apps

I know soooooooooo many girls who are interested in video games and anime, actually one of them totally just ditched me to go do that. Sometimes depending on where you are and your age those interests vary but honestly I kind of like thinking of it like this: Even if 99% of the world isn’t intereste...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 11, 2020 10:42 am
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11067

Re: Struggling with dating apps

I can’t really detail that for you because it’s different for everyone. In my experience, it’s been when I feel good in myself and with who I am/where I’m at, and that I’m willing to add a whole other person with thoughts and feelings into the mix. I seriously think that when the time comes you’ll k...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 11, 2020 10:33 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Okay that’s good to know, thank you. It still feels so strange like remembering pieces of it, to me anyways. We have talked about that, and normally it’s an option but we aren’t meeting in person, its over I think it’s called like Doxy or something. Basically just more secure for things like medical...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Fri Apr 10, 2020 7:25 pm
Forum: Sex, Culture and Politics
Topic: I don’t think I can vote for Joe Biden in good conscious
Replies: 23
Views: 14923

Re: I don’t think I can vote for Joe Biden in good conscious

I think the feelings you’re having are so completely understandable. My mom, brother and I were all born in the states and my brother and I are dual citizens. Needless to say, we stay involved in what happens in the states. My mom supported Elizabeth Warren (and for that matter so did I, but like I ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Fri Apr 10, 2020 5:40 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Yeah, hopefully she’ll get a little better around it, although fingers crossed it doesn’t get to that point. I just don’t wanna deal with the germs right now. Mindfulness is cool and neat, but also so strange. I think I might steal your line with that, because I get how my therapist is trying to tel...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Fri Apr 10, 2020 8:25 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Yeah, connecting with people has been nice. Video chatting with my family was pretty nice however their views on the whole virus - I don’t even know where to start... my mom eventually said “alright enough of this, can we all agree on rum? We all like that right?” And changed the topic - I left the ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 09, 2020 3:50 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Oh yeah, also - what I forgot to add in my post this morning was also, she gave us an option for a residential treatment facility. I hate people seeing as a terrible thing honestly, do I want it? not really but like people assuming you’re crazy because you need that support, like what no. My mom see...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 09, 2020 1:12 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11067

Re: Struggling with dating apps

For so many reasons I'm glad Heather covered all of that, especially as someone who's been hospitalized for mental health reasons. But also, I still don't think I understand why this is so important that you do match with someone? I know Jacob mentioned taking a break from it, and as frustrating as ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 09, 2020 12:06 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Yeah, hopefully it all goes okay with that. I keep thinking that like my abuser was the one to bring up being trans though.. and that thought won't leave my mind. Also with the abuse that pretty directly relates to like feelings around my body and I just don't want to be wrong I guess.. I'll talk th...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 09, 2020 10:49 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

The person I’m seeing is actually for me, not my parents, they’re aware of that. However, I do also need my parents aware of what’s going on and if I need something, such as maybe I can’t consent to medication myself, I need someone who’s able to advocate and willing to take the time to explain thos...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 09, 2020 8:35 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

My friend seems to be doing alright (as much as he can be anyways) with everything and I've just done my best to be there. I still wish he'd go to the police but that's his choice. Yeah, it was really weird to kind of realize that when I was talking to him to say damn, I was here a year ago and I'm ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 08, 2020 3:49 pm
Forum: Gender
Topic: Coming out as agender?
Replies: 21
Views: 13442

Re: Coming out as agender?

I'm sorry you didn't feel you had anyone and that there was such poor recognition. That really sucks. At my school, I feel we have quite good representation of a whole variety of things from cultures, to teachers who are people of color, teachers that identify as LGBT and more. There's multiple gay ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 08, 2020 2:24 pm
Forum: Gender
Topic: Coming out as agender?
Replies: 21
Views: 13442

Re: Coming out as agender?

I hope it's okay I add in here a little, when I first came out, I came out as agender. Since then I've found that I identify far more in the binary as a trans male. While I'm not entirely sure what things are like where you live when it comes to issues around being trans (however you define it), I k...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Apr 07, 2020 2:42 pm
Forum: Gender
Topic: Binding
Replies: 8
Views: 6786

Re: Binding

Hi, Sky, It's not weird to wear a binder even though you identify as female, some people just don't like the appearance of breasts. It's actually quite common among some of the lesbians (but not just, they're just popular and I think they're cool) I follow online, and I can name a few women that got...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Apr 07, 2020 10:50 am
Forum: Gender
Topic: Binding
Replies: 8
Views: 6786

Re: Binding

Hi, Sky. So, I’m someone who’s been binding using actual binders for well over a year now and I’m hoping I can provide some helpful information. As far as binding goes, the first most important thing is safety - meaning it’s really important not to use binders off like Wish/Ebay/Amazon. I’ve had fri...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sun Apr 05, 2020 9:25 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Me too! I'm feeling pretty confident at this point my mom will be able to talk well on what's been happening (I'll probably still give her the note that tells her stalking is different from bullying) but yeah, it's nice. It really is a lot nicer being able to go to her when they happen, partly becau...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 04, 2020 10:54 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I think for the most part yeah, they're helpful. It sounds weird (to me) to call them that, but I don't think "late night breakdowns featuring my mom" is any better of a name. I think she's really kind of seen the amount of pain I've been in, we're all (dad, mom and myself) frustrated beca...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Apr 04, 2020 8:54 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

That makes more sense, thank you. I think for right now, there are a few things I can try to start practising that thinking. It'll probably get a little easier when the weather gets better to push myself to do things like go out. If I didn't care, I wouldn't be scared to post on Instagram for once, ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Fri Apr 03, 2020 1:18 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 76554

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I get how laughter can be a defense mechanism and such, but wow, when that's happening it doesn't feel like it. It feels like they find it hilarious that they're able to hurt me, as if it's some sort of game. But yeah, I don't know what exactly their thinking and I hope that what I've been thinking ...