okay Heather. i went to therapy today and i talked to her about everything that has happened during the time i haven’t been and it’s been a lot. well i wrote it and had her read it because writing is easier emotionally on me. she had to pick to get to my emotions like always and she asked if everyon...

i’m frustrated and stressed out over this. like you’ve talked to me. i’m a fucked up individual. you can’t deny that. i really don’t need anyone. i think i might stop therapy too because it’s expensive and makes me more stressed and frustrated sometimes.

okay hello, i needed a step back moment from all this so i took one, i’m back and ready to fully comprehend everything again. yes all my friends in this state are cis and hetro. i don’t have one online friend who is straight, i love it. they all are so completely different and i have about 10 who ar...

i don’t know why i avoid it. i guess i’m just scared. i don’t think people like me and when they say that they do i don’t believe them and then i get mad and they get mad because i’m mad. they try to reassure me and i just continue to try and push them away. i’ve tried with all the friends here that...

i get what you mean heather. i feel like you understand me lol. i don’t know if i’m looking to date or what. honestly, i’ve just been having a tough time and this past 2 weeks have been the hardest times of my life. i have 3 friends in this state and all my others are online friends and live in diff...

yeah. i said that we could make out and touch and that’s definitely not something i want until i actually love the person. i don’t really know why i said that, i just wanted her to want me. i just wanna be wanted.

i did delete the app. yes please, options.

and yes i know tinder is for hookups. but i’m just lonely and wanna talk to people and then they bring up sex and i’m like ah shit here we go again.

hey Heather. that was a little dramatic i guess. i cried a little and took a nap and now i feel kinda better. thank you. also, it was on tinder that’s where most the bad stuff happens and then like bumble or okcupid they all just ignore me.

hi! we’ve touched on this before but how do i explain to people that i want to have a connection before i have sex? i just got rejected again because she asked me what i wanted and i said a girlfriend with just like emotional connections, i said i don’t want to have sex that i just want someone to k...

In conclusion, most people suck and I am sad and wish I could hide forever. Thank you for all this though I appreciate it!

It’s okay, I’ll keep playing the bi or lesbian card, wherever people think I am, I’ll play it. It’s easier that way. Thank you for offering that though. I’m in a Facebook community thing and there’s literally a whole ace phobic page that talks badly about us and how we’re just scared and it’s not va...

That’s besides the point. I get what you both mean. Today’s been a very vulnerable and hard day, I guess that just was a little bit too much for my brain that was already triggered so much. I wish people could process that there’s so many different types of attraction and someone can experience one ...

He actually is a friend and we’ve even hung out outside of work before. They all are my friends.

So, today I found a girl pretty at work. I said, wow she’s beautiful holy crap. My coworker (cis male) then started to tell me I should go talk to her etc I said “no, I don’t wanna talk to anyone, I like being single and having myself” I didn’t know what else to say. He brought it up all day! He tol...

Thanks Al and Heather! That helps. The more I think about it and try to actually pay attention to what I’m feeling is the first guy I saw had amazing tattoos and beautiful smile and the other guy I saw had incredible hair and the first one was just so damn handsome lol. Finally learning and talking ...

Okay this is probably is stupid but maybe you can reassure me. None of this is meant in a sexual way, I really don’t feel those feelings anymore and before they were extremely forced before so this isn’t that again. So, I’m homoromantic 100% but I’ve been seeing men and like woah they are attractive...

Hey, I don’t think I’m breaking anything here (I’m trying my best to respect boundaries). Today I was told that I more then likely have borderline personality disorder. Which is, something that’s been said to me before but it still is pretty shitty to hear. So yay! Another thing on the board :( it’s...

I know this isn’t the place for mental health matters. I just wanted to tell you heather that you’ve been pretty much right about everything. I was not well so I got money together and made an appointment and she told me that I have bipolar with psychosis and that my ptsd is very severe. I’m Upset? ...

I did what she said. I do need help. Hopefully they can get me in soon!

Hey heather, thanks for being so nice to me. I’m sorry that you understand the process and feelings that I’m talking about but I’m really glad that you do because it’s helping me a lot. I emailed her back after she said I’m a good person who deserves help. I told her that what she said made me upset...

Hey Heather, I was joking about the terming breaking up with me. I understand what you mean but it just kinda sucks and makes me upset that I told her like the bare minimum and she can’t help? It’s kinda a crummy feeling because I’m pretty sure I’m healed of all that trauma expect my dad leaving me ...

No, unfortunately she just broke up with me! She told me to seek other care because it’s not appropriate for me to see her monthly and that she couldn’t help with everything in going through. I didn’t even tell her anything except about my childhood and I mentioned self harm and I mentioned a briefl...

Okay Insertive is way better for me to say thank you. It makes me feel less dirty lol. I’ve never had sex in any form before. I just know that’s not something I’m comfortable with as of now, I have good solo sex like everyday and I don’t insert anything but I mean, that’s because I’m patient and kno...

Okay, I have a burning question for like 2 months now. I know you all have a lot to do so I won’t tie y’all up but like it’s bugging the crap out of me and I can’t continue to wonder anymore so I’m back again. Awhile ago I was talking to this girl and we were talking about having sex, you all helped...

Hey heather, it went really well. She’s super nice and we really connected I feel. She wants to see me weekly and she wants me to get on medication because if I am bipolar I shouldn’t be unmediated. But, I finally did go. I figured I would let you know since I’ve been a pain in the ass and caused a ...