Heather- If you’re running chat today , maybe we can talk for a bit in it? If you don’t mind.. I have some new things I wanna talk about

Also yes I did re open the sessions

We talked on the phone and she told me when I want to quit that’s when you need to go the most. I drank again tonight and felt like I was in control because I didn’t get drunk but I shouldn’t have drank and I regret it because I was sober for so long… :( I just fuck everything up all the time. Every...

She said she’s sorry I feel the way I do but it’s my decision. It also hurt me last night because I was like my bar is on the ground and she said my bar is lower. She’s not wrong but like damn lol.

Because it’s a waste of money and I don’t need to pay someone to lie to me that I’m worth anything

I quit therapy today

I’m under the influence and am thinking really deeply and feeling a lot so I’m gonna type a lot. I feel like a part of me is broken for thinking I’m asexual. The fact that I don’t wanna have sex for the enjoyment it’s for the task of having sex (I learned that today in therapy!!) makes me feel like ...

I’m sorry I’m talking so much all the time. I just wanna be able to accept myself and understand myself. I’m so thankful for all of you that have talked to me and made me feel supported and cared for and not judged. I appreciate you all. <3

You know I just need to suck up the fact I’m asexual. I don’t need to do things I don’t wanna do. I’m just struggling with my identity and I wish you guys could make it all better..

Can you just re tell me that I don’t need to force myself to have sex I dont want with a gender I don’t want.. I have plans too but I really don’t want to

Are you running chat today heather? Maybe we can talk there again?

I literally just told a queer community that I’m homophobic and you’re still nice to me? Wow..

The older I get the more I realize I’m homophobic.

And yeah I took those into consideration but I’m not ready to do this but I have to do this, so I’ll suffer the consequences later.

It just made me uncomfortable seeing them all happy and together I guess. Like seeing them in bed together laughing I just couldn’t do it. I probably won’t go on a date with her. I’m talking to this guy and we’re planning on having sex I think this weekend or next.

I just tried watching the cloud movie and it made me uncomfortable so I turned it off I’m sorry. I tried

I have a date Friday with a girl

I think it’s next week but he wasn’t even aware I’m that there was a group yesterday lol

I went to the group tonight heather and it wasn’t going on tonight. Made me look like an idiot to the guy

She said she doesn’t do that

I asked my therapist if she can do some conversion therapy shit on me

I just don’t wanna be lesbian. :( I want to be straight :( heather and I have gone through this so many times I won’t get into it again but yeah I don’t know why I’m obsessed with men to know when I already know I’m not bi. I don’t wanna kiss boys I wanna kiss girls and hold girls and hold hands wit...

Hey Carly!

You’re so sweet. Something about you just seems so nice. I’m not really interested in them sexually and not at all romantically. It is to check my sexuality, if that makes sense.

She already gives me sliding scale price. So I guess I just wanna know, am I valid in identifying as queer if I never try with a man, I’m just not really interested in them and I don’t know. When I in-vision my life, I have a wife and we’ve adopted kids and we’ve adopted a golden retriever and a bla...

Can I vent about my sexuality? I feel like I don’t have anyone really I can’t afford therapy right now for this week so I’m out of that support

Hey heather, I’m sorry for lashing out on you. I am really unhappy with my life right now and I took it out on you. That wasn’t cool of me and I deeply apologize. I’m in a really rocky spot again and I don’t feel like normal me. Im not trying to excuse what I did because there’s no excuse for it. Im...