I was just referred to a new doctor. A nuerologist. I just got back from the appt and When he was asking me what happened in my life that was traumatic, and the usual shrink/therapist/counselor questions to get to know absolutely EVERYTHING that has happened in yourl ife that makes you feel the way you do. The one thing that I never could do out loud. Admit that I had been raped, I did today. And, it wasnt as hard as I thought. I mean sure it was difficult, but it doesnt have to sound as nasty as RAPE. I told my doctor that I was sexually asulted/abused when I was 15. Now of course that doesn't make the idea all pretty and glamorous, but it sure does sound a little better, and I feel great. I know this doesnt mean I'm "recovered" but hey, Its a step to getting my life back, and Dammit I am thrilled! I couldnt be more proud of myself. Thats one step further to the settling of this battle. Just thought I'd share that info with you! Thanks to all of you who have helped!
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Thanks guys! It is definitely a huge thing. Mostly, I hate going to female doctors. I don't know why, you would think I wouldnt want to go to a male doctor - considering my past - BUT, she was absolutely fabulous. She was a rape victim herself, and she suffers from depression, but being a doctor, she has learned to overcome it, and focus more on helping those who are in her shoes. As soon as I said that, she came across her desk, put her hand on my shoulder, and said I know exactly how you feel. She knew how hard it was for me. I have an appt Friday, and I hated going to therapy before, or any type of apt that makes me talk about things that were hurtful for me. I am actually looking forward to it. Its nice to finally be able to trust someone, which is really different for me. I have this huge trust issue now, but maybe things will start looking up for me. Thanks for the support, everyone! Really! Thanks!
Hey guys (girls)! It has been a while since I have posted a topic or reply on here. I just wanted to update my last post by saying my new doctor has a major impact on my life. ALready! Things are looking up for me now. I still struggle, and it isn't at all easy, but I know now that I can't really expect it to be. Its life, its complicated! But, now, I have a new way deal with anything that gets "thrown" my way. Everyone here has been a LOT of help to me as well and I will continue to post here! Thanks!!!
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