This will be kind of hard to explain, because it sounds really weird.
Well, for a few months now, I've been very paranoid that my boyfriend is going to die. He has diabetes (sp?) and he started smoking at a very early age. He has broken almost every bone in his body before because he does a lot of crazy things (stunts, mostly--I told him that it concerned me a lot, and he stopped and liked that I didn't want him to.)
I'm so scared he is going to leave me... and I've been up every night worrying myself literally sick. I've even started praying every single night because I feel like it's a last resort. He is in pretty good health right now though, which confuses me because I have no idea why I'm like this. I mean, I cry my eyes out every night begging God not to take him; that's not normal...
Well, today he got very sick and passed out at work. Now, as you can imagine, I'm going nuts. He sounded terrible on the phone, and I can't calm down. I have never been like this about anyone. I think it's partially because I love him with all of my heart. I've never loved anyone before, but I have lost a lot of people I care for. I know I shouldn't worry, but I am. Anyone else relate?
[This message has been edited by lithium (edited 07-16-2004).]