Last night, well 3 am today, me and my friend had to call 911 over our other friend. After drinking, he started slitting his wrists, and trying to kill himself.
We had to hold him down, and he wept so hard- he didn't want to die. There was just so much pain inside him. We got him into the hospital, and they released him this morning (my feelings on that are irrelevant)
And yet, now, I can't seem to shake that feeling- I'm really down and easily upset. And I don't understand why. He's "fine" now.
I rrealized how easily human life can be compromised- but I don't think that explains this feeling. I honestly feel liek I'm going to be sick, and I tried to sleep (you'd think it would be easy after being up all night) and I can't.
Nothing's wrong w/ you sweetie ... You're upset, and you have every right to be.
I don't understand how your friend could be "fine" now; he's likely not. Is he on any medication and seeing a therapist now? I was put in the hospital for 10 days after THINKING about suicide ... And i didn't even try it. It boggles my mind that your friend could be out this fast. Anyway ...
Do you have anyone outside of the siutation (in person) that you could talk to? Sometimes it really helps to talk about this stuff ... w/ someone objective, and w/ someone who knows your situation.
Let your friend know that you're there to listen if he needs someone to talk to as well, but don't force him. He's likely got enough to think about right now ... Just offer support, but try not to overwhelm.
As well, my email is listed w/ my name at the top of this forum (where it says who the mods are, click on my name and it'll give you my email address), if you ever want to talk about it.
I was furious they let him out so early- apparently the doctor was tired (at 4 am! her admission) I asked what they were going to do so that it didn't happen again. They said well if it does, we're here. Which I find a deplorable way to deal with it, but hey, I'm not the doctor.
See, there isn't anybody I really talk to OUTSIDE the situation, because a) I'm normally a very closed person, so there's only 3 people I would normally get into ANY type of feelings-thing with: 2 are involved directly today, and the other has i) tried to do it herself in the past, and ii) and has been a spectator so many times before, so this is just all normal now, and b) this is just the wierdest feeling- I want to be with people, because I just want to feel "normal" but I also need to be alone. It's very confusing.
I just feel like I can't snap out of it- and face it, I'm not the one who did this, so I really SHOULD be!It's driving me nuts.
Well it sounds like it was a pretty traumatizing thing that happened and you have every right to feel upset about the situation. Just give it some time to let yourself feel better and to try and get over your feelings of being upset. It only happened yesterday so that really isn't enough time to feel better about it. If you want to be with people then just find someone you are close with, be it a family member or a close friend or whatever that you can talk to and confide in, but if you feel like being alone, then that's fine too, spend some time alone with yourself somewhere where you feel comfortable, that you can take time to think.
I know I'm not in your situation and I really don't know exactly how you feel, but I hoped I helped a bit, and good luck with your friend and I hope you feel better soon.
I know exactly how you feel except that with me its completely different. My friend was really depressed and she was going to kill herself. I was able to talk her out of it, but I was so scared the whole time. I felt realyl guilty because I didn't go to anyone. I kept thinking that if I went to see someone I could save her. Luckily she didn't kill herself, but i know what its like to havea friend who almost commits suicide.
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so THAT's what "Clear Fields" does... <cringe> I'll start over.
He gave up drugs and alcohol for a while...3 weeks I think. But once he went home for Easter, he started right back up again. It was slightly better when he came back here, and I knwo he's been through AA and NA before (apaprently his chapter's youngest member) but he gave it up LONG ago.
But he's back home for the summer now. He's drunk himself to passing out every single night since he's been home. Every single one. For a week and a half. That's where he is right now.
He says he's just having fun- but I'm worried. He's always been a heavy drinker, but this is starting to have me seriously questioning. He's 20 years old (last january).
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