I'm sincerely doubting that a therapist used the word "crazy." That sort of language isn't in as therapists' reptoire, because they know that mental illness is just that: illness, just like any other sort of illness.
And I'll reiterate that: mental illness is like any other illness, like being diabtetic, like having an STI, like any other illness. Illnesses tend to require treatment, sometimes long-term, and medication is one form of treatment. When it comes to mental illness, especially like schizophrenia, it's often highly effective treatment, at that.
Take a minute and realize that if your doctors are correct, you could be on the verge of potentially feeling better than you ever have. That's a reason to be hopeful, not upset. Based on your past posts here, vball, it seems pretty clear to me that finding a possible solution to how you've been feeling and to your lack of control in terms of your moods and behaviour is something to be pretty darn excited about.
Here is the home page for your current medication: http://www.lexapro.com/home/default.asp
You can read up all about it there. In general, SSRIs take at least a few weeks to make a difference, and real differences start to show in a couple of months. These types of medications aren't dangerous and are pretty gentle. Side effects tend to be very minimal. Basically, if what you have isn't chemical, they just won't do anything. If it is, they'll help, though sometimes patients may have to try a couple different formulations or brands to find the one that's right for them.
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