sorry to hear you're in such a rough spot right now, roxy.
is there someone around you that you can talk to about how you've been feeling? maybe one of your parents after all? or a relative, a teacher, a counsellor, your priest / rabbi / spiritual advisor or your doctor?
your doctor could also help you find a therapist and consider other ways to deal with depression (i.e. medication).
it's very very important that you search out real life help, hon. i know how difficult it can be to tell someone when you've been down and low for a while, but it's important you reach out for support now! its serious stuff when you're depressed and don't think you can go on, and it's essential to ask for help if you feel you don't know where to go.
please approach someone around you. crying still sucks, but when you have someone there listening and supporting you and helping you find a solution and way out, it's far better.
finally, there's also the nationwide suicide hotline: 1-800-784-2433
Spike: (In response to being asked to fight a troll) "I would, but I'm paralyzed with not caring very much."
[This message has been edited by Alaska (edited 02-12-2003).]