Sometimes, when I'm all alone and have no one to talk to, I get really sad. I know I prolly sound like a little glr or some thing but it's more than just feeling a lil down. I start to cry really bad. I don't know why it just comes out. I feel like I wanna just smother, or stop breathing. I think about everything that's wrong with me.. Everything I lack, everything I need, just everything. I feel like the lowest form of shit. I can't stand to look in the mirror. I'm just too ugly, I can't take knowing that's me I'm looking at. I have no talent. I don't see how anyone can stand to be around me. All my friends are better than me some how. I'm out of place with them. Besides the little bit of friends that I do have, no one likes me. How could they? I have nothing to offer. When I get in one of these 'moods' I feel like I'm stuck in my skin. I have to get out some how. I feel like I want to just cut my wrists... Maybe not to die, but just for some kind of outlet. I can't take it. Ugh I hate it all.
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awhile ago i felt like that but never wanted to cut my self if i was alone witch iam and always was home alone a longe time if i started to worrie about something every litttle thing mad eme upset just like you i started geting scared of high school and it just got worse then i taalked to my mom about how i felt and she helped me and talked to me and now i don't feel like that or get sad and angry at my self try talking to your parents
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Don't cut yourself! No no no no no no no. I used to cut myself, and frankly, it messed me up a lot. Hurting yourself or other people is not a very good way to deal with pain, loneliness, or anger. Get a punching bag, or go running. It's hard to feel bad when you're completely physically exhausted. I feel really good when I run because it's like my blood's moving faster and my body aches and I just want more more more of that adrenaline! I also talk to a therapist, who helps a LOT. She's helped me through some unbelievably tough times. Maybe you should think about seeing one. If you're in school, chances are your school has an in-house therapist or psychiatrist. My advice is to check out therapy and maybe join a gym. Something like that.
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For starters, the fact that you want to cut yourself is a sign that you want someone to see that you are in deep pain.
I cut myself many times in the past month, and at first I thought I didn't want anyone to see it because I was embarrassed, but when my close friends saw, and got worried about me, I felt a little better because I knew someone cared, and that helped me alot, and I haven't cut in a week or so... that's not very long, but for me it's pretty long.
But frankly honey, there's obviously something wrong, you might have manic depression for all we know, but the point is you need professional help soon, especially since you are feeling the urge to cut, but let me tell you, it's not worth it, I get asked about my wrists alot now (there are huge scars) and it's embarrassing, because there are certain people I don't want know about my problems.
I haven't gotten professional help yet, but I have an appointment with a counsellor tomorrow (yay), To help me with my drug/cutting problem.
Is there anyone adult/friend/parent or anyone that you trust that you can talk to about your depression? You should really tell your parents, it might seem scary to do, but you'd be surprised at how supportive they can be, I was pretty damn surprised myself.
So make sure you tell someone, because based on what you said, you really need some sort of therapy/counselling.
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