I guess I should start by explaining a little bit about my background. I have been depressed off and on for the past 3 years but trust me, it's been mostly on. And what a miserable time that has been for me what with hardly attending school and trying different meds that only succeeded in making me sicker. I had thought that I had conquered depression though. Med-free too!
Well, for about the last month, I'm going from a pretty even keel to insanely depressed (yes, I'm safe and would not hurt myself) and I have no idea what to do. I refuse to go to any psychiatrist except my own who unfortunately, you must scehdule like a month in advance unless it's an emergency such as a risk of harming yourself. I also don't want any meds.
My problem is, I've stopped attending school. I know that I should go and I know how lucky I am to have made it into an alternative school that started out perfect for me and I'm sure would continue to be perfect if I could just get myself out of this lousy depression. I'm perfectly content with lying around the house reading and I have absoulutely no motivation to leave the house...it has taken all I have to sit down at the computer and write this.
Another problem: My grading at school is different. Half of your grade depends souly on your attendance...my grades are plummeting and I'm so miserable. My mom, I know she understands but she gets frustrated (just as I do) and wants me to suceed. I WANT TO SUCEED and I'm lacking the motivation to do so right now.
Hon, not wanting meds is a very common part of depression. My partner has severe depression, and we've struggled time and again with the meds/no meds issue. It's a tough one, and I can see both sides of it, having been on antidepressants myself for quite a while. They can be beneficial, but they can also be mis-used.
And as for seeing a therapist -- have you at the very least made an appointment with your psychologist? Even if she/he can't see you right now, the sooner you make an appointment, the sooner you can get in to start talking about this. You might also want to ask if they could call you if they have any last-minute cancelations -- a lot of places will do that when someone wants to be squeezed in sooner than the next available appointment. It's worth a shot, anyway.
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I guess I can! I can't go on anti-depressants because I also have Bipolar Disorder and this throws my mania into overdrive. Through med-induced mania, I was raped and almost killed, so you can see why there is no way I want to try meds again. I've tried mood stableizers and they leave me feeling rundown beyond belief. So my problem is not with simply "not wanting to try meds" it's the fact that I have tried 17 different meds and not one of them has worked and a few put me in grave danger. Medication is no longer an option. Thank you.
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Have you considered trying to find a new psychiatrist? Or perhaps a therapist or counselor who will help you explore alternatives to medication?
Alternative medicines might be another option. Accupuncture, herbal treatments, and even just allergy treatments have all helped certain people with bipolar disorder. Honestly, there's a lot we don't know about the human body, and while standard medications are certainly a viable option for many people, they are not the only option. I would encourage you to keep trying until you find something that works.
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