im am so depressed, i can hardl sleep at night cuz of the pain and i constently want to die, nothing makes me happy any more and im so upset that i cant even cry. the tears refuse to come, im so upset because a month ago my mom died from aids and my half brother my only relative moved away cuz he got kicked uta the foster house and i never get to tlak to the kid much less see him, my grandparents are bothe dying my grandpa of pancreatic cancer and my grandma of old age. and they are real sad and depressed because their only daughter my mom died, adn like i dont knwo i never see them i miss them tribly and i love them all to death yet i never see them and i just need someone or something to tell this all to my friends really dont understand and i relaly had no where else to turn, so i came here, i dont know why it was really just an impulsive thing. and i just want to hear what you peolp have to say,and if anyone out ther knows what i am going through pleas etell me adn try to help! thnx a bunch!
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Posts: 20 | From: crystal lake il. USA | Registered: May 2001
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I have been in a similar situation. My sister died of aids and we were terribly close. You need to seek proffesional help. Suicide isn't the solution. I have been down that road plenty times. If you can't afford a professional counselor, seek a school counselor or a counselor at www.teenadvice.org
Hope everything works out.
Posts: 4 | From: Sandy Ridge, NC USA | Registered: May 2001
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What a terrible thing to have gone through. I'm so sorry. We had a guest speaker the other day in health who spoke about his wife who died of AIDS and I was drenched in my own tears.
One thing you should know is that it is not unusual for you to be feeling this way. You're going through a lot. But just imagine what you're death would do to your grandparents! (It's really NOT a solution)
I suggest that you find someone you can talk to privately. At least once a week. Maybe a counselor, a teacher, a relative, a friend... and you've ALWAYS got us at Scarleteen. If you ever want to talk I'm on AIM as MsZim01. It's unbelievable how much talking it out can make a difference.
I wish you all the best, sweetie. I hope you feel better soon
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