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(I'm not sure if this is the right section to post this in)

I am very confused, but I can't pin point everything because there is somany things so here it goes.

I feel so restrained and out of place at school because i just don't feel I can share my opinons, thoughts and intrests with my friends when i comes down to it all my friends are just there to have fun with laugh with i don't trust them enough to share my secrets witht them. Yet i have known some of them my whole life!

I don't mean to judge but sometimes i feel that there are just a bunch of air heads at my school that are just doing everything in thier power to be popular even if it hurts someon else or disrupts the class or makes them look like a complete retard.

Ido this thing called office helpers which is just basically being the secretery when she is not there. Every time i make a mistake and another teacher is around the principal will team up with the teacher in making me feel bad. A teacher at my school has been accused by some of my friends for being a pedophlie but nothing happened, he made a comment about my friend bum to her last year but she didn't tell anyone neither did i. Ths has driven me into wat seems to be never ending anger and i'm really freaking myself out because the other day i picked up a razor and tried to cut but the razor was to dull so it didn't work.

I feel like a complete reject because it seems like no one cares about me, i'm not good at anything, my family ignors me because they are too busy, my grandma nd aunt are annoying the heck out of me to the point where i'm begging to not want to come home from school any more even though i don't feel good there, i think i'm going crazy. i have wird daydreams of punching the living daylights out of any who annoys me or treats me bad and i find myself have to restrain from actually doing it.
I find that I think to much so what I think about blurrs into reality and sometimes i can't remember the difference and again i say i think i'm going seems the only one who cares is my cat but now it's not enough.

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Michelle Ravel
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(Oh, honey. School is so tough. I went to school in Etobicoke, and I still live there, so I'm sending sympathetic vibes west for you.

I don't have any advice, except that middle/high school really does end, and it really IS different once you go to university. So please do as well as you can in school so you can get the heck out! Try to stay true to yourself.)

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I had some close friends for about 9 years. They grew into people I hated. I stopped spending any time around them and hung out with other people.

Maybe you should try making some new friends who are completely different? If you think they are air-heads, self-aggrandizing, idiots, well, it doesn't matter a lick about how judgemental or not you are being; you have every right to pick and choose those you spend time with. Do these people make you happy, make you feel good? If the answer is no...why are you their friend?

Having fun at somebody elses expense is a big no-no for me (Ironic, isn't it?). I don't tolerate it very well, I don't find that sort of humour funny...

As for people being overly critical; don't worry about it. Everyone makes mistakes. A heck of a lot of people probably make far more mistakes then you do. Try telling your teachers that. If you do this voluntarily and it is upsetting you, offer to quit and give them the option of finding somebody better. Chances are with a couple weeks without you, they'll realize how valuable your help truly is. And your help is valuable; don't ever think otherwise. If your help was useless, why would they let you do it?

As for the teacher who made a comment about your friends bottom; tell your friend you heard it. Tell your friend it is really bothering you. If your friend is really bothered as well, the best thing to do is talk to somebody about it. Don't accuse him of being a pedophile, just go to the administration and say "I heard the teacher say XXX about my friends bum , and that disgusts me. Perhaps I misheard, but it is bothering me." - Chances are, the administration (Priniple, Vice Principle) will be equally bothered.

As for the cutting - that is bad. I get the feeling you don't want to do it. I know far too many people who have cut and it never truly helped them. I don't think I am good enough to convince you not to cut here and now. I am not going to tell you it is dangerous, that you shouldn't do it; you probably know this already. But if you decide to anyways, please sterylize your cuts...I had a friend who got very sick and infected and had to be hospitalized.

You shouldn't feel like a complete reject; there are likely some really great characteristics and attributes special to you; I can recognize one just from your post; you are annoyed at your friends for having fun at others expense. There are certainly people that care about you, and I am certain there are things you are good at. You just have to find them, figure them out. Then do them.

What are your grandma and aunt doing that annoys you so much? Tell them it bothers you, and ask them to stop...chances are, they will.

If you are worried about your sanity, go to see a psychologist or psychiatrist if you can. They will be able to help.

Good luck!

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