I am crying so much right now. I have been working at a CVS for two years now, and have never enjoyed it. However, I held onto the job because hey, it's a job, and my stepmom like won't allow me to live unless I have one.
So I called work to get my schedule this morning, and all that was said was that I needed to talk to my Boss, who was on a conference call. So I thanked my co-worker, hung up the phone and freaked out for about an hour. I just called back to talk to my Boss and she says I either need to increase my availability or she "can't keep me on" anymore, meaning, I'll have to be fired or quit or something. My boss says she can't keep people on who don't have flexible schedules any longer, and that is completely understandable. However, I don't have a flexible schedule! I attend a demanding private school an hour away from home, as well as take classes at a University after my classes at my High School. I am a student. I spend just about all of my time and energy on schoolwork, but I am involved in other activities, too, plus, it's nice to get to see my friends every once in a while. I love social interaction.
I am just so scared right now because my stepmom is going to KILL me if I'm not working. I just need to make it through this last year of High School..... I am so close to graduating... I hate it with a passion and never thought I'd live to see my own graduation, but here I am, an arm's length away and.... JOB PROBLEMS, yet again. I thought I was fine, working the same 8-hr shift every saturday. That was secure, it has been since September. But now I guess that isn't enough, I need to be working more. And working more? For a place I hate? AND having to keep up with all of these other demands? I just can't do it....
I have been thinking about work a lot lately. I don't know EXACTLY why, but I've always had the worst anxiety about work. My job at CVS isn't as bad as some of the other jobs I've had, but I just get treated like dirt there despite all of my effort and hard work. It's never felt right, never felt comfortable.
I am thinking I can either look into transferring to a different CVS, or um.. I guess I would be forced to find another job somewhere else unless I feel like being disowned by my stepmom. I've been considering transferring anyhow because my boss at my current store really is awful to deal with and besides, I drive quite a ways to get to work, whereas there are multiple CVS's closer to home.
If anyone can help me, I would appreciate it sooo much.
but in the end is right
i hope you had the
time of your life"