I've never felt like this before...this is without a doubt the most incrediblly horrific thing I have ever seen in my life. And I still don't know where my Uncle, who worked in the World Trade Center, is.
God help us all.
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Just realised that we don't know where my partner's foster-brother is either . . . I don't know what to do . . . love, make positive things, make energy that way, I guess. I'm listening to gentle, beautiful music by someone who died violently, and wondering about the meaning of that.
Posts: 5122 | From: I *came* from the land of ice and snow | Registered: Aug 2000
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I would just like to tell you how scared and confused I am about all this. It was about 2pm here when I'd just had lunch and was watching TV, and suddenly comes a news flash saying a plane had crashed on the WTC... a few minutes later there was another one. No one knew what was going on, and confused reporters and journalists tried to explain what they didn't know either. When I first heard the news I froze, and as they got worse and worse I had tears in my eyes that came out when I saw the towers collapsing.
I have been feeling like I am in the middle of a movie, a book, or a nightmare, because this doesn't certainly look like reality to me. And I'm not even American, I don't have family there, and the only link I might have with the US is being part of the same planet.
I was in NY a couple of years ago, and I was at the top of the Twin Towers, and today my sister picked some photos and hung them on her bedroom walls. We look at these photos thinking how that belongs to the past and maybe this was the 1st time that I felt how big the world is and how these things really do happen and are not only chapters in History books.
My hands are shaking as I write this, and I know this was supposed to be for Prayer and Meditation, but I couldn't help myself and I had to write something that somehow would make my feelings come out.
I just hope everyone from Scarleteen is ok, as I know there are people from NYC here, and take care of yourselves and lets hope this won't go on for long...
The reality hasn't really sunk in for me yet. I see the pictures and hear the news but it is horrifically unbelievable. We have to remember that eventually human spirit will prevail and we will get through this together, as a nation and a world.
I pray that eveyone here is safe, and my prayers go out to the families of those killed and injured. If we all ban together we can overcome this.
I live very close to the World Trade Center, and unfortunately, today was a day of great sadness, for this entire country, myself, and those around me. A good deal of my friends' parents work in the WTC and it was absolutely horrific to see everybody panicking trying to get in touch with their relatives and friends... it was even worsse when they couldn't make contact. My thoughts and prayers are entirely with anybody effected by these events, and I hope that an end will come to this senseless violence.
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Danny called her cellphone earlier- she didn't answer, but it did ring, and he left a message. The fact that it rang is a good sign- apparently she is never separated from that phone under normal circumstances, and if she had been near/in the WTC, I'd guess that her phone would have gone with her. Meanwhile, it's quite plausible that the shock and bedlam could have made her leave her phone behind. I'm guessing and hoping that she's safe- my fingers are crossed for her.
Posts: 2710 | From: Australia | Registered: Jun 2000
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I am so numb. So heartbroken.Terrorist acts are taking place 20 minutes from my home. School was beyond chaotic today, consoling friends whose family members work in the world trade center area.
Right now I can't even understand the exact depth of the meaning of what has happened. No doubt people I may know were injured or killed today. It's kind of a blurry image until everything is really determined, names are spoken.
What in the world could make this worth it? This is inexplicable. This has profoundly changed my life.
I wanted to go to the hospital to donate blood, but I heard on the news that they are caring for people from the bombing over in my area as well, and the buildings are closed to the public as of today. If you're able, please, here's your chance to do a noble thing.
I have all the sympathy in the world towards the people whose lives and loved ones lives were lost. Nobody deserved this. Let's do whatever we can to console these unfortunate people.
I'm sorry that this had to be my first post on the return of Scarleteen. I'm glad that we can have eachothers support, no matter how small it may seem though. Best Wishes to you all.
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i just wanted to check in and see if everyone is okay. you're all in my thoughts. God be with you (this coming from an atheist -- well, it certainly can't hurt). Spend quality time with loved ones tonight. *hugs*
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I actually want to put a small plea in right now, simply because when we're hurting, it's sometimes easier to see things clearly and get motivated to change them.
Statements in the news that this was unrivaled to anything else in history because of an attack on civililans is simply patently untrue, and truly disrespectful. I know it hurts, and it is terrible, and it is horrible, but when we get honest, we need to look at our history and realize that America as a nation has done very similar things TO other groups of civilians before en masse: to the native americans in this country when we settled, in other wars, at Nagasaki, in Vietnam in the persian Gulf.
It's hard as hell to acknowledge responsibility at times like these, but I think it's really impirtant, especially when people start crying out for blood, since all that does is further these types of cycles more.
So, I suppose what I'm trying to do is to urge you through your fear and pain to look at the big picture and get active with things like this in terms of peace in the future.
Lilnerd and Sapphire, I am very glad you are both okay.
I wrote a whole bunch about it in my blog, as has BruinDan. I was completely shocked when he told me the news this morning. Who would do this kind of thing, I have no idea. My heart goes out to everyone who worked in the buildings, and everyone around it. I would say a prayer, but I'm Jewish and I can barely remember how to speak Hebrew, let along type it.
::Moment of silence::
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I am so scared right now. I see have been watching the news like all day. This is just so unbelievable. I never expect anything like this to happen here. This is the type of thing to cause World War III. I feel so bad for all of the families that lost loved ones throughout this whole ordeal. I know that the United States aren't really the most loved country. I know that from my history class. We have done some really bad things to other countries, but they should not do that. There is really no reason. All I have to say, is may God be with all of us through these terrible times.
Posts: 19 | From: Minnesota, USA | Registered: Jun 2001
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I don't even know what to say. I was in school this morning, within walking distance from the WTC, when it happened. I was very afraid for my mother because I knew she was going to be flying this morning, and I was convinced for a few hours that she was on one of those planes. I'm still very much in shock. My best friend has a friend from school who is probably dead now. She had an internship at the WTC, and no one has heard from her. I've just been busy calling everyone I know to make sure they're alive. I can't believe Bush is talking about retaliation now . . . as if killing more people will help anything. I hate violence so much. One of my close friends from school is Iranian, and she's suddenly become a target of violence aimed at all middle-eastern looking people. A kid actually threw a bottle at her on her way home. It's so scary. I can't stand that the US is so surprised when something like this happens. This country has been killing innocent people en masse since it started, and then when someone else does it, all of a sudden, it becomes a problem. I hate the idea some people have that an American's life is more important than the life of someone in Palestine or Japan. I mean, people are people, borders are meaningless. I just wish everyone could get along, or at least just yell at each other when they're angry instead of killing each other.
I can't really say that I'm surprised that this happened (well, except for the fact that the WTC got bombed -- I didn't expect it to be the target of another terrorist attack). Still, it's horrible. Being on one of those planes must have been unimaginably awful.
I must admit that I'm angered by some of the reactions I've seen. People die every day, sometimes horribly, and the vast majority of Americans don't care because they don't know the people who die. And then something like this happens and a number of those previously apathetic people suddenly start caring about people they never knew. American lives aren't worth more than others, and it angers me that some people are acting like they are.
Mostly, though, I'm worried. Does the government really think that retaliation is going to make this any better? Showing how big and bad America is will likely just make the terrorists more dedicated to their cause, as their problem with America quite possibly centered on its power and alleged oppressiveness. And that's the last thing anybody needs, particularly since we live in an age of nuclear weapons. (The bias that will probably spring up against people of Middle Eastern descent has me worried, too, but that's in more of a detached way -- much as I'd like to say otherwise, evils that affect me directly do garner a much larger emotional reaction than evils that don't.)
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PoetGirl- I am so sorry! I hope everyone you know is okay. This is probably hitting you a lot harder than me since I live half way across the country and people here are taking it bad. I'm hoping everything can be done to save as many more people as possible.
There absolutely isn't anything that I can say here to express what I'm feeling. Many of you have already done it better than I. I agree with those who have said above that this type of thing does happen all the time, that America has done this to many other countries, that people are dying and hurt every day. But this is something that's unlike what most of us have ever lived through. Some of us didn't think this could happen in our country. Some of us didn't think something of this magnitude could happen at all. It's just impossible, implausible, and yet, it's happened and it's here and our friends and family are mired in it and now we have to deal with it.
It has changed my life, as of today. I've never felt like this before. I've never felt so lucky to still be alive, and so very, very sad for those who lost their lives today.
I'm calling on everyone who writes an online journal or diary to update; I wish that everyone who read one could see how this has affected all of us. I have noticed many websites place this news foremost on their pages, and some pop-under advertisers replace ads with pleas for blood donations and mirrors of news sites.
This affects everyone, everywhere, and it could soon directly affect many more people - especially if we do lash out with violence against this violent outburst. I don't see this ending in a plea for peace, much as I would agree with that; I see much more bloodshed, and I tremble for my country as well as for the world.
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This is such really crazy what is going on, I dont even understand why people would do this. Every time I watch what happens it gives me chills all over again, and its like a saw it for the first time.
All we did in school yesterday was watch what was going on. All things were cancelled for school.
My heart goes out to every family and person invovled in this. God Bless EVERYONE.
My dad works for the FAA so he is really upset about what is going on.
Everyone is in this together. Help anyway you can. Donate Blood!
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Another thing, they were talking about bombing Niagara Falls, and I live right by there. Im scared about that. They reason they would want to bomb that it because the power plants. That Power plant supplys power to the whole Northeastern part of the country.
My dad says if a nuclear bomb hit Niagara Falls that we and everyone around it (That would be all my friends and family) would die. My dad says he doesnt think that would happen with that sort of bomb, but it is possible. I dont know what to think, I am really scared!
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my mom lives in niagara falls, too. she said that they've been blocking off all road access to the power plant. there really isn't much chance of accessing it via water (only in a really bad movie would a terrorist take a bomb through the niagara rapids)and niagara falls has always had an air base, so there's air support, probably flying in a defensive pattern alreay. at least that's what my mom told me when i called her and suggested she go visit relatives we've got who live out in the middle of nowhere in kentucky. all any of us can do is hope and pray to diety we pray to that there will be no more attacks, and give blood and otherwise help out with the victims and their families. 'rin ps - ok, have we heard from everyone *here* who's from the new york area now?
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I am "glad" everyone here from the NY are is ok...
Today I wooke up and thought "this must be over" ... then reading the news on the net (I can't bear watching tv now coz they're always repeating the same video of the same people jumping off the windows of the towers etc )... and so much has happened...
Violence throughout the world... even here in Portugal, I'd think nothing would happen *here*, but lots of bomb threats to important buildings and people, the airports are with maximum security measures... if it seemed to be out of reality... now it really has to be...
And when I heard President Bush was talking about retaliation, I was so shocked... my mum said "it has to be", but I don't understand... "why?" ... for me it would be enough if they just found out who did all this and punished those and only those people, otherwise I think we will be talking about a 3rd world war
I just can't understand the world anymore and I am very scared about all this...
I'm thousands of miles from the USA, have never visited, have no friends there and still feel numb inside. It's horrible, so so horrible. And I totally agree with you Miz S. What has made me saddest today, apart from the obivious tragedy, is the hatred it has inspired in people. It chills me to the bone when I hear people my age talking about revenge and killing as many Palestinians as they can, especially when they don't even have the facts. We are all people, we all live on the same earth-why do we all have to see things so differently? I don't pray, I'm not spiritual but my entire heart goes out to anyone who was affected, by this or by any other attack, whoever did it.
Posts: 394 | From: Manchester, Lancashire, England | Registered: Dec 2000
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Oh people, I am so happy that those of you who are from NY are ok.
Poetgirl, my first thought seeing the WTC in flames at around 3pm German time yesterday was of you. I tried to remember where you lived and was sick to my stomach wondering whether you are ok.
I am beyond words today. I am a few thousands miles away from NY; have never been there, yet this touches me deeply, as it does everyone that I have seen on the streets or on TV here in Germany yesterday and today. Zapping my way through my TV channels yesterday afternoon, I saw the World Trade Center after it was hit by the first plane. It was all bizarre and I really didn't realize where this was at first, didn't realize what had happended - it was all way too similar to a crappy action movie or bad novel, I don't know. Over the course of the afternoon, I found myself sitting in front of the TV being sick by the pictures of the second plane crashing into the WTC, by the people jumping out, by just imagining what must have been happening inside the building. I was also sick by lots of what I heard on TV from politicians, by the pictures from the occupied territories of celebrating palestinians (simply because I DO NOT believe that the Palestinian people are happy about what happened here, those celebrating people were a minority, and an insane one, too). On the other hand, I was impressed by the rescue workers, the doctors and nurses coming in to help, the firemen and women, the policemen, the everyday New Yorkers queing to donate blood.
I am beyond words, as many people seem to be these days. The scenes here on the streets are eerie - last night, the local paper was handing out extra papers for free, informing people in the pedestrian preceinct about what had happened, many hadn't heard it yet.
In any way, I hope the US government and law enforcement will not rush to judgement and will not run to retaliatory air strikes too quickly. I heard someone on CNN yesterday saying that this was like Pearl Harbour and should be answered like Pearl Harbour - and while I agree that something has to be done, the idea of a nuclear war between the Western Nations (NATO just told the US that they will support no matter what) and possibly Afghanistan and Irak just scares me. Completely.
My thoughts go out to all of you these days. May the religious beliefs that you have offer you some sort of comfort in these trying times, and may whatever higher beings there are bring clarity to the people who make the political decisions that decide about the fate of the US and the world these days.
God Bless all the people who have died and all who are working to prevent more deaths. May God have mercy on whoever did this.
Posts: 37 | From: Massachussetts/Rhode Island | Registered: Mar 2001
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i live in dayton ohio and we have our downtown streets blocked off that are near the federal building. our schools were let out and of course the air force base and the airport are very secured. two jets took off from wright patterson airforce base last night and scared everyone around here because of the sonic boom. we were so close it shook our house. i really feel sorry for this whole counrty because of everything that has happened. it is a horrible thing.
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and another thing i dont think that the people in afganistan or wherever should be celebrating. we wouldnt celebrate if this happened to them. it is really horrible that they would condone the violence and the killing of all of those innocent people.
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ok yesterday was horrible. i am gunna copy/ paste something i wrote last night. First of all its long. and second, im not a great writer, i write like a 12 year old. but if i would send it to anyone it would be here, u guys are great. last night i wrote this when i was trying to express what i felt. well here it goes: Many dreams and hopes were ruined today by four suicide bombers and their conspirators. On September 11, 2001, four U.S. domestic flights were hijacked and were forced to crash into the pentagon, the world trades centers, and in Penn. Today will never be forgotten, it will be put in our hisory books along with Pearl Harbor and Oklamhoma City. Many people were killed including the crew and passengers of the United and American airline fights. The people working in the Pentagon, and World Trade Center. But we can't forget the innocent bystanders that were along with so many others killed with no way to defend themselves. We need to acknowledge the firefighters, police officers,ems, and volunteers that were gave up their lives for strangers. Let us remember the dead, they are someone's mother, father, sister, brother, cousin, wife, husband, son, daughter. These people are family by blood, or just because they are fellow US citizens. No one has won, everyone as lost something. We have lost family members, friends, and many great people who's lives were ended way too soon. We have lost the security that U.S is safe that no country or person could succeed in harming so many people on the mighty U.S land. We feel scared but we must not give up hope for our wonderful country. We shall be proud that we care so much about others that we have run in great numbers to aid the weary and do whatever ever they could to contribute. We can and will grow stronger as a nation because of these horrible incidents. We need to thank the doctors, nurses, volunteers, people who gave blood, and the reporters who are risking there lives so we can know whats going on. So please take a minute of your hectic schedule to say a little prayer for everyone especially those effected the most and deceased, injured and their friends and families. God bless America! -Please send it on to your friends and family and feel glad that you'll see your them at the end of the day!
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I know I may just be a 17 year old kid who doesn't know the whole story, but please understand that those Palestinians who were celebrating do NOT represent the whole country. They were supporters of the terrorist group. I believe that this has fazed the United States and those people are happy to see us as a country caught with our guard down. If we rebuild and heal, there will be no cause for celebration. There are many innocent people in the Middle Eastern countries, people who are just caught in the middle. I want to wipe out whoever did this as much as anyone, but killing innocents is not what the USA does. But, we will again have to prove ourselves. To quote Admiral Yamamoto of the Japanese army shortly after Pearl Harbor " I fear we have awoken a sleeping Dragon." It seems that the Dragon has awoken once more.
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I don't know what to think about any of this...I live 13 miles from NYC, you used to be able to see the towers from my town, now they're gone...My dad works a block over, but decided to go in late that day, and then heard about it and didn't go it. Today he said to me, "you know that thai restaurant i took you and your sister too in June? Gone." New York City is completely changed, when I would visit my dad's office I would take the subwat right into the WTC, my sister and I went to the mall there right before I left for the summer, it's all just so scary...thanks for being there and listening to my random thoughts, you guys...you're in my thoughts and prayers.
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"What if you slept, and what if in your sleep you dreamed and what if in your dreams you went to heaven and there you plucked a strange and beautiful flower, and what if when you awoke you had the flower in your hand? Ah, what then?" -Samuel T. Coleridge
FYI, most of the people caught on newsreels doing such were very young people, folks. And given our nations foreign policy, and the level of violence (sometimes from us for no good reason) people in those countries are used to (and perhaps desensitized by, esp. the young people), it's important to have a little perspective and realize where they are coming from and that, as Moirphos said, they do not represent a country any more than any small gathering of people represents ours.
We can, in fact, be quite certain, that plenty of Arab-Americans died or were injured Tuesday with everyone else. And do realize that it actually has happened in this country during terrorist attacks on other countires (like for instance, the ones WE funded in Guatemala in the 80's) that citizens here have reacted insensitively as well. How some people in this country reacted positively regarding the killing, mainiming and terrorizing of the vietnamese people -- terrorized by us in Vietnam -- in a war we waged only because of an ideological issue (our paranoia about communism), not because of any sincere threat, was completely appalling, and many of those people were NOT uneducated, young nor outside the norm. Read accurate historical accounts of how we behaved in colonializing this country if you need more proof of that. So yes, we would do the same at times, and have, more than once. People are human, and do not always think before reacting, no matter what country they are from. People can be vvery cruel, no matter their color or upbringing. It is unfortunate, but true.
That's something very important to bear in mind, because alreaady, in several places in the US in the last day, innocent Arab-Americans (including a children's school in Chicago) have been attacked by our citizens simply for their race.
This quote comes from one of the national papers here in Canada yesterday. I think it reflects the way many people, whether they want to admit it or not, felt and/or are feeling...
quote:"I will never see another devout, turban-wearing Muslim without wondering -- unfairly, I admit, against my better instincts, I realize, but doing so nevertheless -- was he part of it? Or, at least, did he feel remorse?"
The article is by a writer named Ian Brown, and you can see the rest of it here.
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America must not repat the injustice of the japannese internment camps of WWII, and must not associate this horrible deed with any religion or ethnic group. However, I do think that milatary action is called for agains tthe Taliban if they do not turn over Bin Laden (the evidence is pointing his way on this one, and even if he didn't do it he is guilty as sin on too many other atrocities). The actions should be directed at the Taliban, and not the people of Afganistan, all efforts should be made to keep collateral damage and civilian casualties as low as possible. But the Taliban should get the status that Nazi war criminals now have, and should be liable for arrest anywhere in the world. They should be hunted down and exterminated like vermin. If we do this we will be doing the people of Afganistan a big favor. There is a big difference between the bin laden supporters and troops, the taliban leaders, and the average afgan civilian.
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Hey guys, I've been away for a while, but I had to put my two cents in here...
I'm still in shock. Looking at the photos and images from the other day, it looks like a scene from a movie, doesn't it?? Stuff like that doesn't happen here, it seems like a bad dream, or an action movie. Just Sunday night, I was watching the movie Independence Day. I didnt think twice about the horrible rubble and mess left over in the movie. And now it's happening in real life. And it's even worse now that it's not aliens who are attacking us, but our fellow human beings. But I guess they must not have been human, becasue NO human is that evil. People that evil are in a category all to themselves.
If you were affected directly, or even indirectly by this tragedy, know that my thoughts are with you. We will get through this, the USA is strong, and we'll show everyone that we can not be brought down.
PS- how many people are going to donate money to the red cross?? Please consider it, even the smallest donation can help a tremendous amount.
PPS- remember everyone, that we are all on this earth together, we don't have anyone but ourselves in the universe. Let's all just try a little more.
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I cannot believe that this has happened. Too many innocent people died...too many. Every time i watch the planes hit the towers, or someone jumping out of the window of the towers it just sends a chill throughout my body.
I am full of sadness, shock and total anger.
This has hit our country head on and i know that whomevever had done this wanted it to, but we will not fall apart. I know that we will get through this, we will.
God bless everyone and to all those whom have lost family members or friends...my prayers are with you.
*A person that asks a question is a fool for 5 minutes, a person who doesn't is a fool forever*
I think it's terrible that some people are taking their anger out on innocent Muslims. It's simply stupid. Yes, a Muslim terrorist group may have been responsible for this tragedy but there's no need to shoot at Islamic schools and stores, standing in front of mosques and waving the American flag threateningly. It makes me so mad when I see it on tv.
I was listening to a radio call-in talk show on my drive home yesterday, and this one lady called in and she just made me so angry. She said we (as in the US) needed to stop immigration, we needed to protect ourselves from them, prevent them from coming in and hurting us and ruining our country. She was just so ignorant. Not everyone person that comes into this country is a terrorist. Her selective memory was quite good, seeing that she didn't remember who was responsible for the last big bombing.
I couldn't believe her mentality. The hosts of the show didn't either, but she got quite upset when they said we might as well send the Italians home since they brought in the mob, and the Irish home because they bring in the drunks. But of course, according to her "this is diffent".
On to something else before I rant some more...
For me, the saddest part of all of this is how many fire fighters and police officers died. They go to help and rescue, yet they end up being killed for their bravery. Such a loss. I think the bond between all fire fighters is so admirable and enviable. So so sad, I can't really put it into words but I'm sure many of you understand. If you want to donate to the NY firefighters relief fund, go here http://daily.iaff.org/fund.htm.
I live in new york, on tuesday i was in class whan i found out, life changed in a moment for me, at little did i know at that moment my sister had just been ushered off the subway and was about to run for her life in a huge crowd of people trying to get way from the collapsing towers and to somewhere that the ground wasn't shaking. My life was altered, i was holding on to everything i had, as my friends and i wandard through the crowded streets stupified by the ocean of life that was moving in one direction, the fear that had swept the land and the presence of police, fighter jets and black hellicopters. Nothing was opened, and no one knew how they were going to get home. My sister arrived safely at my school and my boyfriend was given a ride home, our departing was dreadfull and saturated with the feeling of "will i see you agian?" My sister and i walked 80 blocks along with a crowd of people to get home. Once home I watched the news for 8 hours (only about four channels had normal programming) and listened for explosions, and waited to be safe.
The next morning my boyfriend had shown up at my door, and filled my heart with a calm. We layed around and then went to the closed zoo. Then we bought gas masks and decided to go to Manhatten.
We tried to get as close to the WTC as possible and then gave up when we realized it was pointless and went to see a movie (which was free on 14th street) then we seperated to get home, i still dreaded the end, and worried if i was going to see him agian but felt more calm about it.
I got on the subway and smelt smoke, i went frantic and found myself uptown looking for the safes way to get home. I got home thinking "Please god let me get home safely" I did and i am greatfull of that.
Life is terrifiying here, transportation, school, and recreation are terrifying. An unknown sound or rumble strike alarm, a siren or announcement are the line between calm and panic. I see the terror in peoples faces, and i can feel it everywhere, the city is quite and humble.
Today we were cleared from the great lawn, all people heard at first were," emergency, leave the lawn" the terror had returned, my thoughts were "i knew it" and my boyfriends were " i can't believe this", i'm familier with the run that says "i'm scared *** all hell!" and i know how it feels to run that way. then the message got less fuzzy and it was just "emergancy helicopter rescue something or other." the reliefe was amazing. I can't even explain how it feel's to try and live your life when you fear death is truly lurking around every corner, when your parinoia is justified and when your not at all ready for any of it. All i can do is live my life, i'm too young to donate blood, to average to control the country and too uneducated to volenteer. I just want to make it through this, and the only way i know how to do this and know that i'm Pro-life and Pro-freedom and anti-terror.
all i can do is enjoy what i have and pray for tomorrow.
For those who are too young or for some other reason cannot donate blood, I heard a really good suggestion today. The Red Cross always serves snacks to donors after they give blood. You might call your local Red Cross and see if they need post-donation snacks. Cookies, brownies, small sandwiches, crackers, sodas and other sugary drinks, and suchlike are all appropriate. They may have other ideas for volunteering, too.
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I chose not to read any posts after they started turning political. I am EXTREMELY patriotic and i dont want to start a debate or continue any debate.
I want to say that i have stepped back from things to think about what happened to all those people. I hear the horrific stories of different people and i cry. I am angry at who did this, but more then that i am sad for those who lost their families and loved ones. Leave the polotics to our government. Our job right now is to mourn and try to rebuild our nation.
"Keep watch, dear Lord, with those who work, or watch, or weep this night, and give your angels charge over those who sleep. Tend the sick, Lord...; give rest to the weary, bless the dying, soothe the suffering, pity the afflicted, shield the joyous; and all for your love's sake. Amen."
Just heard from my folks that my aunt's stepsister, who works in the WTC, is okay. I've never even met this person and have only the most tenuous of connections to her (my aunt is my aunt by marriage and the stepsister is the child of her father's second wife, married long after my aunt was grown and left home), but I'm so very glad she's safe.
im so confused, sad, and it seems all so surreal still yet. when i turn on the news, and see ground zero, it doesn't even feel like im looking at NY, much less America. it seems as if i'm looking at israel or another mid-eastern country. even if i am hundreds of miles away, i still feel just as heartbroken and painful as most others. i just wish that this all couldve been avoided.
So...what to say? Umm, as for prayers, I've been praying to every god and every person I can think of, but reading about buddhism and the dharma has been comforting me the most, so here's a little bit I found that is a part of a buddhist prayer, that sums up how I feel.
Let no one anywhere despise another, Let no one out of anger or resentment, Wish suffering on anyon at all.,
I know a lot of people think that the terrorists and those related to them were monsterous peole, that it's a tragedy, and that we should bomb Afghanistan. They don't care that innocent people will die, they don't care that we'd just be monsters too.
Mostly though, I've been trying to keep my views to myself about this because I've gotten a lot of hassling for it. People accusing me of not caring about what's going on. That's funny, because I was crying on Tuesday trying to get my class to be quiet so I could hear the news, while those accusers were talking about the Homecoming dance. Ironic, isn't it? I most certainly care, I think that this is a horrible tragedy and I do think that we need to get justice for the people who died, we need to punish the terrorists and their associates.
But...I can't see killing innocent people. I just can't condone it or agree with it or promote it. In my opinion it would be almost Nazi-ish. What did the nazi soldiers want to do? Wipe out people. Why? Because of their religion, because of their race and their color or who they liked or how they acted. So what'd they do? They killed them. They listened to Hitler and believed him. Now so many people want to do the same.
Bomb Afghanistan they say, even though we don't even know for sure who is behind this, but because the news is speculating that it might be them...who cares about the children who don't know what's going on, who cares about the women who don't even have a say on leaving the house by themselves. Let's just kill more people. Yeah, because that will make all our people come back.
I just keep wondering...when did the first person decide that they could kill someone to get their way? When did they think it was okay to take a human life, and what was it over? And why is it that so many people think that killing people is the answer to our problems?
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