I wasnt really sure where to post this. Sorry it its not in the right place.
See, this is pretty much how it is. Im really weird when it comes to my health. If Im sick I wont go to the doctor but if Im not sick Im convinced that I have some really bad disease. Like cancer or something like that. I want to go to the doctor to get checked out to make sure there isnt anything really wrong with me but I dont know what to say to him. I just want to make sure Im healthy and that Im not dying and that I can have kids when I get older. Thats another thing. Im scared that there is something wrong with me that will keep me from having kids. I dont know, call me stupid but I just worry about my health.
If someone could give me some advice on what I should have done at the doctor and what I should say to him it would really help me alot.
Because if you do, things will appear in a doc's observations and questions to let them know if you need any sort of testing. That's the purpose of physicals.
Can I ask something else: Melea, are you bored right now or depressed? That isn't a put-down, I am simply asking because those two things can actually contribute to someone feeling very fatalistic, or in some sense even WISHING there was something wrong with them, just to break the monotony of things and give them something important to deal with.
The last time I went to the doctor was when I felt that bump in my lower stomach. Or whatever it was. He told me I was normal. Thats one of the reasons Im scared there is something wrong with me. It wasnt there and then it was. And no its not a hernia.
Well I guess I am bored right now but I have been alot worse off. For the past couple of weeks I have been in a really good mood. The best I have been in for awhile. So its not any of that. I dont wish I was sick to change things around. I pray that Im not sick. My mom has lupus and cancer runs in our family. I see my mom in the hospital all the time. I guess I just dont want to see that happen to me.
I just have a feeling that there is something wrong with me. I would just like to make sure Im healthy and if Im not I want to find out how to change that before its too late. I know it sounds like Im depressed but really Im not. Just a little weird.
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