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JackT
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My father who I'm no longer in contact with showed me porn at an early age, I'm not sure how young, but I think between the ages of 6 and 8. I don't know if it messed me up a little, he explained it in detail, I don't really remember much. At that time I shrugged it off as something weird. But until recently I couldn't think of sex as something good to experience.
I guess I kinda had anxiety over it... I used to feel bad if I thought about girls like that, and it wasn't due to religious upbringing, my parents aren't religious.

The relationship with my father was abusive, he was emotionally manipulative, and he left home recently and stole all my money. I'm glad to be rid of him.

I know that exposure to porn at an early age isn't the only reason to lack interest in sex, but I feel like thinking back on things now, it might have been the reason for me.

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Stephanie_1
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Hey JackT. I'm sorry to hear you had these experiences with your father. Can I ask if you've had any therapy or counseling to help you work through some of your feelings around what's happened with your dad?

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JackT
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Thanks for the reply =)
I've had therapy for other things, some of it involving my dad. But I haven't mentioned this yet... I guess I should. It's just hard to mention to someone directly. I was diagnosed with PTSD after a natural disaster.

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Heather
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Are you saying you feel like it's not okay for you to not have an interest in sex (or sex with women, specifically?), whatever the reason?

In other words, not everyone has an interest in sex with others, or has it at a given time. Sometimes that can be because of trauma or negative social conditioning/experiences, other times it's not, it's just how someone is feeling, not out of fear or aversion, but just because the interest isn't there.

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JackT
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I don't really feel like it wasn't okay for me not to have an interest in sex. I was just wondering that perhaps that experience had something to do with my feelings about it.

So yeah... I guess I've just been a little confused. I used to not really be into thinking about sex... now I am a lot. I don't feel bad having an interest in it, so it's not causing me a great deal of worry.

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Heather
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I think this is one of those things where identifying the why of your aversion or disinterest is going to take some time. You can certainly seek out counseling around it to facilitate getting at those answers if you want, but as you think about all of this through life, you also may well come to those conclusions on your own.

Either way, though, having disinterest (rather than aversion, that's kind of something else) sometimes but interest other times is actually very typical to some degree for all people through life. People who generally have an interest in sex and being sexual rarely have that interest 24/7, 365-days a year. And sometimes people will go through periods of life where they will have disinterest for days, weeks, months and even years without there being a problem at the root of that.

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JackT
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Thanks a lot [Smile] What you say makes a lot of sense.
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hey i went threw the same thing with my dad and then some...i had no sexual interest at all...and i got a boyfriend and i found out that it screwed with me more then i thought...so much so that i couldn't enjoy sex at all it was almost like i couldn't feel it but if you cant say anything verbally to a therapist maybe you should write it down as a letter and give it to the therapist...so it breaks the ice a little
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