I think maybe I should give a little background. Well me and my boyfriend had been dating on and off for 2 yrs. We had started dating my freshman year, he was a senior and I was a freshman. I'm known as the shy, sweet, and timid girl, so I was kinda nervous. But we started dating, and I fell in love with him. But that turned to disaster. His ex would stalk me and text me, so I would get stressed out and begin losing weight. He would take up for me and tell her to leave me alone, but he was doing stuff with her behind my back. I loved him so much that he was my first time it made me feel better for a little while. I wouldn't change that he was my first time. But he continued to cheat. We took breaks from each other but you could say we were still together. Guess what? he cheats on me with a girl who sleeps with a lot of older guys. Me still loving him I refuse to believe it, and continued to be with him.I broke up with him for a month or so, but he wouldn't let me go. I was his property, I couldn't sleep with other guys or talk to them not even as friends. THE LAST STRAW: During the summer, he started talking to my friend/cousin. It honestly hurt....it made me sick to my stomach. I was so stressed i wouldn't and i didn't even come on period sometimes. She would lie to me about not talking to him, so i cut the friendship off for good.He saw me at football game and texted me that night so we started talking again. I don't know why i actually started talking to him again...maybe it was to prove a point. But I was talking/dating another at the time but I couldn't do that to him so I stopped talking to him to talk to the ex. Well my supposedly bff came back telling me stuff just to keep drama up. This is when I finally cut it off. He was already mad that week so when i broke it off he was pissed. He said i didn't care and he didn't care. Whatever I heard or saw I deserved it. I said all this to say this. He tried to control me and verbally abused me by saying all of the time the reasons he did this was because i wouldn't open up. No i did everything for him. It still hurts, but I know this is the end. He'll try to text me but I wont take him back. I'm done and he'll realize he was wrong. Although he'll feel I'm not over him and he still has control over me, I don't think I will date or be intimate with anyone until college (which is a year and a half from now, yes!) but I'm happy to be myself. Vengeance is mine says the Lord. But I'd like to thank everyone that helped me at this website when I couldn't talk to the people I thought I could trust. I honestly appreciate you all. I hope some girls or guys who are going through the same thing can get over this eventually like I am. THANK YOU! GIVING DOESNT ALWAYS MEAN YOU'RE WEAK; SOMETIMES IT MEANS YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH TO LET GO.
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