okay so my ex broke up with me 2-3 weeks ago, since then i have talked to him about it, as at the time i was drunk. He was being an arsehole (he said it, not me) and told my bestie that i ws too emotional and that he didnt like that, the argument (in other post) was about being able to be open, couldnt he listen to his own advice?
Anyway the next day once i asked him and he was not telling me, we were at a party later that night and we ended up hooking up alot.
The next day we were off to a concert together. during that day he had his arm around me and i lent on him and i was sleeping on his legs blah blah blah... anyway i went stayed at his house after because there was no way of me getting home that late, so i shared his single bed and we had some kisses, like the good old days. being a single bed its kinda small, so i was sleeping on his chest, he told me to sleep there, i liked that.
Anyway in the morning we had a few more kisses, and i rolled over to the wall and just said, 'im doing this for my own good, i want strings and you dont' he goes 'yeah i dont want to hurt you anymore that i have.' Dispite the fact i said cant we get back together and work out of problems, because i told him that i felt like ive made this all happen and i blame myself. But i cant help the fact he doesnt love me anymore, thats not a good excuse anyway, what does it mean, for sure its not the whole truth.
i still like him and i think everyone thinks im silly that i still do, but i cant help my feelings, try going from 1.2 years with everything to 'hi, how are you' or as you would call it, mates. its not a smooth transition.
Theres a part on tonite, im not going because ''i dont know about it'' but i have plans anyway, i hope to god he has a good time because that is all i want for him, if i cant have him then he can enjoy his life without me. sounds weird me saying that. Then again i kinda hope he misses me....
I Hate to Love him, I love to hate him , the feelings suck..Awww....
anyway i need to fume that out, thanks
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