I was with my boyfriend for a year and a half. This was my first true relationship and the boy i lost my virginity to. I fell in love with him i would do anything at all for him. He wanted to get married and have kids together and i told him i wanted the same. And then this year I just turned 17 and had surgery and it really hit me about my youth. I am not ready to be in a relationship for the rest of my life. I dont know if he is what i want for the rest of my life. And I became very unhappy, wishing i was somewhere else. I became so deeply involved that i didnt know what type of music I like or what kind of activities I enjoy. All I know is I felt trapped, and so very young. My emotions would swing from loving him to hating him.
But I had to let go. I've been telling him for a week I wanted to go out on my own and experience other things. But last night is when it really hit him and excepted what I wanted. He did not take it easily, nor did I but I kept most of it in. He said I'm the only person he has and he can't live without me. I feel so horrible and I still love him but thats another thing I learned, Love is not enough to keep a relationship going. I wanted to make sure he is okay but i need my time and need to sort out myself. Does anyone think this was the right thing to do?? Or is there a way to sort this out together even though we've been trying??
It's ok sweetie, you'll get through this *hugs*
The bottom line is that you need to do what's right for you. Part of loving someone is being able to let them go. If you don't feel ready for this relationship, staying in it isn't going to benefit either of you. It will be hard on the guy, but in the long run it's better for him to find someone that IS ready for the type of relationship he wants than to stay with you and be oblivious to your feelings and emotions, which is what he'd have to do if you stayed together. You've had a life changing experience, and it's ok that you've become a different person. We all grow and change, it's just part of life. No one can look in a crystal ball and tell you for sure whether or not you did that right thing, but it sounds to me like you did.
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