Here's the tough thing, love. Legally, technically, you weren't raped because you agreed to do everything you did without threats and accepted invitation to do so. In other words, it'd be nearly impossible for you to make a rape case with this.
But. In my book, if you were coerced into sex you were not interested in having, that's sexual assault in terms of what happened and how you're feeling right now. You were, indeed, victimized, in part by these guys, and in part by your own unwillingness to say no and to blindly participate.
If you've had periods since then, you are not pregnant. You did however also have STD and STI risks, and should get tested now. When you do that, I'd suggest you ask for some sexual assault support from whatever clinic you go to: you need it, it'll help you deal with this, and if there is a possibility to make a case, you can find that out.
Lastly: sugar, stay away from these people. Big time. And learn to say no when no is the answer you want to give. It's something everyone has GOT to learn to do to survive in this world as a whole, healthy person. If you find your self-esteem is that low, it's time to look into some counseling so you can get to the point where you aren't endangering yourself. That does NOT mean this was your fault -- do understand that. It wasn't.
But it means that you can develop some skills to keep this sort of thing from ever happening again.
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[This message has been edited by Miz Scarlet (edited 04-27-2003).]