Nationwide suicide hotline: 1-800-784-2433
That's a 1-800 number where you can find someone to talk to who will be willing to do everything the can to listen and understand. Please seek help immediately. Call that number, or a local suicide/crisis hotline in your area. If there's anyone you can talk to (friend, parent, minister, teacher, etc.), please do so. There are people who care about you and would love to help you.
Scarleteen Advocate (and Labia Lady)
"The whole world is full of morons...they just congregate on the internet cause it's easy for them to push the buttons."