I'm sitting here, having freakin' butterflies. I can't think of anything else but my i-dunno-what-to-call-her, again, not knowing what to call her. I tried watching spongebob and whatnot, but it didn't work, I still thought about her. I feel like I was all happy for no damn reason. It was a freakin' pouring rain and thats why I'm even more depressed. That happens a lot. I wish my mom can help me but she has an important business crisis to take care of. Every time I feel like turd, my mom would calm me down, and I only temporarily be cheered up.
I'm seeing her tonight and tomorrow. I donno how the hell she's going to treat me then. Yesterday, I thought that maybe if I got her a present she'd fall in love with me. I shouldn't do it now, but like sometime.
I feel like she might be in love with somebody else. Or I dunno about in love, she prob just had a crush on her. Idk. I feel like a butt-head now. I dunno what to think! What to think! I probly don't even deserve a gf. Idk why. I just dk how to deal with myself. I got less stronger. Idk, I jus' need help. Please!!!
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Hi Ste-Funnie! What is the main question here that you'd like answered? If you identify one thing, I'd be happy to help you. I think I got the gist, but I just don't want to misinterpret this post.
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