Yesterday, I was at my grandma's w/ my younger cousins. We were watching iCarly episode of the beauty pageant, and you know, Sam is my biggest crush. I call her my future wife. There was that part where the girls had to switch dresses. When they were trading the dresses, they have their arms reaching out and they like have no shirt on. I mean, it didn't show any further but I still got excited. I imagine her naked all the time. I wanted to announce that it was making me wet but I knew I couldn't say it with the little kids in the room. So I did the best to control it. All I said was "oh my god", over and over, but they thought I was saying that because the show was funny. Plus, I tried coming out to my eleven year old cousin, but then I took it back and thought I could go back out once I have a girlfriend. Other than that the rest of my family knows I'm gay. After me, my 11 yr old cousin is the oldest, so eventually she'll mature. But even if she does, I don't tell anyone except my mom and my councilor about my sexual desires. It was hard to hold it in, but at least I could say "OMG" and importantly I made the right decision.
-------------------- ~Stephanie Gabriella Murray I'm very gay for being a lesbian, and not gay to be what I'm not Posts: 251 | From: Long Island | Registered: Dec 2010
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It's perfectly normal and fine to get turned on when watching TV or movies. Happens to most of us. It's just important to keep in mind that there are times and places where it's appropriate to express that, and times and places where it really isn't. So, you'll just want to be mindful of who's around you - which is exactly what you did, so that was perfectly okay! And if you ever feel like you need a moment to yourself to calm down, you can always excuse yourself and leave the room for a minute.
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"The question is not who will let me, but who is going to stop me." -Ayn Rand Posts: 9192 | From: Cologne, Germany | Registered: Sep 2005
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