Hey, everyone. For those of you who don't know, I'm a lesbian. That might help before you read this post
I've liked this girl in my class for quite some time now, and I think I'm ready to tell her my feelings. We'll call this girl Sadie. Sadie and I have known each other since this past summer, and I have liked her ever since the day we met.
(I posted about another girl that I liked, Whitney, for any of you that read that. The crush didn't really go anywhere.. Just came and went. Just wanted to let you know )
Any-hoo, Sadie and I have become friends, and we're in the same ceramics class. We're not "good" friends, but we talk a lot and have done things together. She came up to me one day and said that she had a friend (a guy) that she thought I should go on a blind date with for some dance or something. I told her that I'm gay, and she was totally fine with it. So now I know she's no homophobic or anything.
Everytime I'm with her Sadie I get butteflies. She's so nice and beautiful and sweet and shy and funny. I love to be around her I just want to tell her how I feel. I know that things could totally backfire, and I'd be left with nothing, but I'd regret not ever having tried. I'm going to tell her tomorrow (if she's there, of course) how I feel and see if perhaps the feeling's mutual. Even if they're not, I still want her to know how I feel about her. I'm really nervous! Ack!
Oh good luck! And gurl you have a lot of courage too do that. Sometimes I think I'd rather not know than risk asking. If Sadie is as cool as you make her out to be I don't think you'd lose it all (even if she's straight or not interested). if it's not uncomfortable for you guys to be around each other then you can still be friends Let us know what happens!
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Thanks for your support, guys Sadie wasn't at school on Friday, and I didn't have the guts to do it today (Monday), but I am definately planning to do it tomorrow! I'm so nervous! I just need to get it over with. Ok, so right when I get home, I'll tell you guys what happened. Wish me luck!
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Hey, all! I TOLD HER! WOO-HOO! I'm so happy that I did it, and it's all over and done. I pulled her aside in class, and I said, "Sadie, I want to tell you something. I'm really attracted to you, and I have feelings for you. You're so sweet and nice, and I just wanted you to know that. I've felt that way for a long time, and I just want to be honest with you.
She was extremely nice about it. She said that she was flattered that I feel that way about her, but that the feelings aren't mutual. She gave me a hug and told me that I was brave for coming up to her and telling her how I felt.
"It took a lot of guts!" I said... We laughed
So we're perfectly cool still, and I feel 100% better now that I've told her. It seemed to bring us closer as friends. And I'd be lying if I said that I'm not disappointed that she doesn't feel the same way, but I guess I wasn't expecting her to come out and say, "Oh, Mary (even though that isn't my real name), I feel the same way too!" Kiss kiss kiss, smooch smooch smooch.
Sadie and I are doing an art contest together, so we'll get to be with each other a lot. We have to practice throwing on the wheel and all this other stuff for the competition, so I'm looking forward to that. I'm just so happy she's not freaked out about me telling her how I feel
So that's what happened! And I still have feelings for her, but I'm just glad we're still friends, you know? Anyway, thanks for all your support! It really helped me go through with telling her.
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