Two summers ago I lost a lot of weight. Well, actually, I was about 5'5" and 130 lbs, and I lost 10 lbs so I was at 120. Then the school year started and I scheduled myself too many classes and had no lunch, and in the morning I was too lazy to get up in time for breakfast, and when I got home I'd have maybe 500-1000 calories. I lost weight gradually. People complimented my weight loss, and I became fiercely proud of it.
Now I'm about 108 and looking a bit skeletal. I want to gain weight, but if I do, I'll feel gross. I was a very fat child and I don't relish the thought of all those lardy globbies hanging off my frame once again. Sometimes I also feel like my waist isn't small enough. Compounding the problem is that I was rather top-heavy and barrel-shaped at 130 lbs- if I were to gain weight, I'd look like an apple on two sticks.
So I know I should gain but I feel like losing a little more, if only for my ego's sake. Is this anorexia? I don't feel like I'm the type of girl who'd have an eating disorder.
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Ok so now you are 108 and are 5'5" that is still a healthy weight but you are kinda pushing it towards being underweight.
Most of us don't feel like that either. Take me for example before I usually the ate one thing for the whole day because I just didn't have time. When I did have time to eat, I didn't I lost all that weight and like you, people complimented me on it and I wanted to lose more.
But, yes it is on verge of anorexia but a least you still eat if not a lot. Just work on putting more food in your body a little at a time. Don't try to eat one big meal, have a couple snacks here and there so you don't think about the fact the you're eating something.
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