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this ever stop? no but it changed!

and believe me, you're not going to get any sort of endorsement from me.

you sound hesitant to do something dangerous. that's your good sense telling you not to do it. really. don't do it. i honestly can't tell you any good that can come from this. maybe i'm just biased because i am clean and don't take any illegal drugs. but really, crystal meth can really mess you up, and so can cocaine. they're both stimulants and will make you very awake at least. and at worst can trigger a heart attack. and big surprise, they're illegal.

is there harm in trying everything once? i think there is. after all, you don't throw yourself into heavy traffic just once for kicks, do you? you don't swallow razor blades once for kicks, do you? then why pollute your body with something that's just going to make it work overtime and then make you feel tired as all hell when you're off it?

And why'd you give up trying to stop? I think you can still stop if you want to. It's just that it sounds like you're going about it the wrong way. After all, you're still hanging out with the same people who still offer you more of the stuff you don't want. They don't sound interested in seeing you stay clean. It sounds like you're going to need real help if you want to get cleaned up. talk to professionals. Try rehab (it's not a bad thing, I have had friends go, and they've come out 200% better) if you have to. Get greg to help you out. And in the mean time, avoid the people who will offer you more drugs. You said it yourself, you want help. i know you can get help if you are willing.

Anyone got links for Alateen, Narc Anon, and some of those organizations?

Narcotics Anonymous I actually have experience w/ this one b/c my mom and her ex bf used to go together. Her current fiance is a "sponser" for another recovering addict as well. I used to go to meetings w/ them when i was little ... It seemed like a great group of people to me.
Addiction Helpline
Drug Addiction Help
Online Recovery Resource Directory

Best of luck sweetie

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~ Maxine Hong Kingston

As much as I resent doing this, I'm being blackmailed into doing it.
My best friend, seems to think I have developed a dependancy to alcohol.

I think she's full of it, cause it's not on a regular basis, and such, but apparently I should do something about it.

I was into drugs and that stuff a while ago, got detoxed out of it, but stuff has been getting bad lately, and this just seems like a way to relieve tension.

I checked out some of those websites up tehre, but didn't really find much helpful.

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Originally posted by cupcake:
I was into drugs and that stuff a while ago, got detoxed out of it, but stuff has been getting bad lately, and this just seems like a way to relieve tension.

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I had to say it, Cupcake, but that could be a problem. It's okay to escape from your problems now and again, nearly everyone does. But when you pick the same method over and over again, especially if that method is potentially harmful or illegal, then it's time to look hard at what you're doing. If you can't handle stress without drinking (and I don't mean just saying you can, but putting your money where your mouth is and totally giving up drinking for 2 weeks or a month, no matter how stressed you get), then your friend might be right.