There has been a developement. My best friend told me (on the phone) quite frankly that he wanted to keepme as a friend, and that there was no chance of me being his boyfriend. The conversation was really casual, and he said it just to make sure I wouldn't make any advances at him, but it was all a bit jokey.

I'm heart broken

Only now do I realise that I really love him, and how much I wanted to be his boyfriend. (And now I really hate his girlfriend, because I'm jealous, but that's just silly.)

Is there any chance left? Has anyone had this kind of experience before?

In other words, you're banging your head against the wall if you want not only a poartner who already haas one, but a partner whose sexual orientation most likely excludes you as a possible romantic partner.

You ask me, when we "really love people," we love them for who they are, not for what they are.

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Heather Corinna
Editor and Founder, Scarleteen