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jtapw
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From: Montreal, Quebec, Canada
Registered: Jul 2001

posted 07-16-2001 12:05 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for jtapw     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ok so this is the thing. I am a 19 year old lesbian who is in love with my best friend. We weren't best friends when I fell in love with her but now it has progressed and I'm still in love with her. I told her how I felt and she still acts the same with me as she did before she knew but the strange thing is that "normal" for her is kissing my head/face, holding hands with me, giving each other back rubs and telling each other that we love each other! We also moved in together about two weeks ago, and I don't think she realizes what it does to me to be so in love with her. I don't want things to change between us and I really don't want to ask her again how she feels because she said last time that she just wants to be friends, but I really think we could have a great relationship, as she is bisexual. Also, she is in the midst of breaking up with her boyfriend. I have no idea what to do because I don't want to hurt her but I don't want to get hurt either...should I listen to the words she says, or the body language? HELP!

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Alaska
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Posts: 4499
From: mad(e) in Germany
Registered: Nov 2000

posted 07-16-2001 02:43 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Alaska     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi jtapw,

My go would be: Listen to her words.

While I of course do not know your friend or can look inside her head, my take is this: You have you told your friend that your feelings for her. She has made it clear that she sees you just as a very good friend. So leave it at that, really.
I know, it really isn't easy when her displays of affection from her to you feel like so much more for you, but right now – no matter that she is bi, no matter that she is leaving her partner- , please do not get your hopes up too high here. You are living with her, and really, if you get your hopes high over what is "a normal friendship" for her, disaster is bound to happen. I'd really be cautious here and try to protect myself. I am trying to imagine what living with the person that I was in love with but who only saw me as a friend would be like, and really, I imagine it to be heaven and hell at the same time. So really, be careful here, hon.

While you said talking to her really isn't something you'd like to do again, I think it might be a good idea. She is your best friend, you two are very close, and you should discuss this and handle it together, as uncomfy as discussing it is. 'tis always a drama when one friend falls in love and the other one doesn't, but if your friendship is as strong as you think it is, you two can handle this, I am sure.
Maybe she will change her mind and see you as more as a friend, one day, but really, gal, do not wait around for that, or expect that, or see her expressions of platonic affection as that.

If you want to, I'll move this to GLBT relationships, so that you get some more views on this. Drop me a line if you'd like that.

Wishing you all the best, gal.

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Mary
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Posts: 500
From: Ohio, U.S.A.
Registered: Feb 2001

posted 07-22-2001 10:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Mary     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hey, jtapw. You know, I'm reading a book right now about a woman and her lesbian relationships. There are a few instances where she's living with a woman whom she's in love with, but the woman doesn't love her the way she hoped she would (ironically, your post sounded like a paragraph right from the book!). I would recommend picking it up- not as a guide to "living with and loving women" but just for something that you can relate with. It's about a woman in London in the late 1880's: "Tipping the Velvet" by Sarah Waters.

I would go ahead and take what Alaska said to heart... I think that was great advice. And I also recommend talking to your roomate; you've got nothing to lose by simply talking about it. See where you both stand, let her understand where you're coming from and try to understand where she's coming from. Work through it together so you're not just trying to fit the pieces together by yourself.

Good luck, hon. Keep us updated, ok?

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