I'm afraid that I took things too far, because I actually liked it - a lot - and now I'm all flipped upside down because I'm not understanding what I want. Usually I know what I want and I go get it, but I didn't want it, and then I got it, and now I want it more. And I'm confusing myself even as I type this. Any insight on my situation or what I should do or any stories of yourself you want to talk about. Or if you just wnat to tell me a funny joke that would be okay too....

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Brittany
Scarleteen Advocate

Q: What do you get when you rub two boyscouts together?
A: Arrested

I mean, it's definitely better than sitting and thinking it over and over and driving yourself nuts. I guess you could say I like femme girls as well, but I don't think that THAT should be the reason why you don't persue her--obviously, you like her, so don't worry about what type she is...

You won't know if she feels the same way until you talk to her, and if you don't talk to her, you'll never know. I know that this was kind of a random act, but hey, it taught you a little bit about yourself, and you're doing better than I ever have... I am the queen of pining over girls and never doing anything about it. Don't be like that, 'cause it's dumb and it will drive you nuts. Been there.

ESPECIALLY since this is your friend (I think), you should really just be honest with her and talk to her. It might not go well, but hey, it could go a lot better than you think.

Usually, being around that person or talking to them (not necessarily about what happened, just in general) helped me sort my thoughts, whether I was indeed falling in lust or maybe something else or whether I was just generally confused or temporarily insane or whatever else.
And if you know a little better what you want, I'd talk to her about it. - at least if it's something you feel you need to share with her (aka, you've fallen in love).

*huggles* to you, gal.

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Caro
~spanking new Scarleteen Sexpert~

It seems as if you are debating whether or not what you did was a bad thing... Well, the thing is, you can really go nuts that way. The bottom line is that you did it, and I don't know her reaction (for instance the look on her face immediately after, or whatever), but I seriously doubt she is all of a sudden going to hate you or something. There's nothing wrong with wanting someone sexually--you just have to decide if you want to persue it from here.
It sounds as if you do. So try not to second guess yourself. Something you've already done can't be taken back, but you can try to not agonize over it. You're going to run across this girl again, and I don't think it's worth avoiding her or what have you just because maybe you are embarrassed or nervous about what happened. It's really not worth going to that much trouble over.

Anyway, good luck!

So far the census is that I should really think about what I want because I did the switcheroo from not liking her to liking her really super duper fast, and that's not really me, so what they're basically saying is I haven't gotten any for a while and I'm confusing like with lust (like so many people do). So I guess I'll just have to wait it out and see what happens...

And I'm sorta worried because I've only been in one relationship when I wasn't cutting. One. And that ended horribly and was basically the cause of me starting to cut again. So...I'm just really worried if I can handle it and whatnot. I mean, it's only been a month since I've stopped, am i really ready for a relationship? We'll just have to see..

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Brittany
Scarleteen Advocate

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Brittany
Scarleteen Advocate