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xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 11-04-2012 10:09 PM
I've been going to a therapist appointed by my work. We've talked about quite a bit about everything. It has gone well, or so I thought. She seems to think that my abortion is the root of everything. It is not. I tell her that I am fine with that. She disagrees. It's really frustrating to me. She suggested a Christian support group for abortion. I told her no. That is not what I need, nor what I want. She says I am resistant because I am afraid of facing it. She is so wrong. She blames my eating disorder on the abortion simply because it made it's debut after that time. Actually it didn't start until a year ago and the abortion is not the reason why. I'm tired of her telling me that I wont "heal" or get better until I deal with the abortion. I have dealt with it! There is nothing left to deal with. I'm tired of her blaming my actions on that day. There is way more to me than my abortion. Frustrating.
Heather
Member # 3
posted 11-04-2012 10:20 PM
Can I ask why your therapist is suggesting religiously-oriented services for you? Did you request that? Can I also ask if you checked into this person's background? Have you asked her to review the actual data and studies around the psychological impact (or really, lack of impact for most, with the data we have) of abortion? If nothing else, have you asked her if perhaps her own politics might be giving her bias here? Or for a referral to a different therapist? It sounds like she's clearly not a good fit for you. (I don't mean to ask big questions and run off, btw. I have to head out for the night for now, but I'll be around in the morning.)
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 12-27-2012 09:38 PM
I received religious oriented services because I work for a religious organization and if I went there it was free. My boss is the one who recommended it. Since I wrote this post I got approved for income based health care in a nearby facility. I had a checkup, which was a bit rough, and they referred me to their on-site counselors which are also income based. I have my first appointment on January 8th. I guess I'll give it a try. The other therapist was obviously not a good match for me.
Robin Lee
Member # 90293
posted 12-28-2012 07:46 AM
HI xneed2knowx, I'm sorry to hear the check-up was rough but I'm glad to hear that you've found healthcare that may well be a better match to your needs. Best of luck with the counsellor. Know that it's absolutely acceptable for you to let the counsellor know that your previous counselling experience was frustrating and not helpful for you.
Heather
Member # 3
posted 12-28-2012 10:19 AM
You'd also messaged about concerns with retaining your job if you didn't keep using their counselor. Is that still something you're worried about?
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 12-28-2012 04:22 PM
I was concerned about that but I think as long as I can tell them that I'm receiving services somewhere then I'll be ok. I just hope this works out. I'm really tired of talking to therapists. I'm not looking forward to starting entirely over with someone new and I really am losing hope that things will ever change.
Robin Lee
Member # 90293
posted 12-28-2012 04:45 PM
HI xneed2knowx, Yes, I can imagine that it feels tedious to have to start all over again. Is there anything we can do to support you to help make that a little easier? I noticed that you said above that your medical check-up was rough. I'm sorry to hear that. If you feel like you need to talk about that, we're happy to listen.
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 12-28-2012 11:45 PM
I just wish I knew why I do the things that I do. I never imagined myself in this place. You know when you're in a really bad place and you see yourself free of it all...this is hardly what you envision. What gives... I was in the hospital for dehydration issues and they are the ones who told me about this income based clinic. I arranged an appointment and my weight is 100 pounds, which at 5'7 generally isn't ideal. I never feel well anymore and as a single mom of two kids it's scary. I want desperately to be well for them. I'm willing to try anything so that's why I keep pressing on and talking with new people. I'm just hoping someone can 'fix' me. I was really irritated with the doctor because she put me on Paxil and referred me to the counselors. I wanted immediate results!! I hate going through the process you know? Anyway, it is what it is.
Robin Lee
Member # 90293
posted 12-29-2012 09:21 AM
Nodding... What kind of immediate results were you hoping for? Do you think it might help ease the process of going to this new counsellor if you wrote down some of the things you wanted her to know?
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 12-29-2012 09:33 PM
Just to feel better...and yes I'm sure that would help.
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 04-09-2013 07:50 PM
Heather
Heather
Member # 3
posted 04-09-2013 07:55 PM
Hey there: how are you?
xneed2knowx
Member # 30216
posted 04-09-2013 09:41 PM
I've always lived along the lines of, "I'm not broken, I'm just bent" but now I think I'm just broken.
Heather
Member # 3
posted 04-09-2013 10:09 PM
I'm off for the night, I'm afraid, but how about you fill me in a bit better and we can get talking tomorrow?