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Fluffybunny678
Member # 45780
posted 06-14-2010 06:44 PM
i started cutting myself a couple weeks ago.. i honeslty don't think ive gone a week without thinking about killing myself. i dont think im beautiful, everyone else thinks that my sister is prettier/ more beautiful than i am. this one time, this person said to me "no offence but your sister is hotter than you are" i just keep replayng that over and over in my head and i cry whne i think it every single time. i die a little more inside every time i hear it. my ex bf is the only one who every called me beautiful and i miss it so much evern though the relationship wasnt its best. i just want my current boyfriend to understand bc i told him why i did the other night. i just want him to hold me in his arms and tell me im beautiful. id only believe it if he said it to me face to face.. i feel like complete shit bc all i get is bullshit from my sister bc shes a year yonger then me and i get treated like im the piece of shit.. i need help. but my parents wouldnt understand. i dont want them to like worry..
Stephanie_1
Member # 36725
posted 06-14-2010 09:05 PM
Hey fluffybunny: Do you have someone close to you that you can talk to about what's happening? I see you saying you don't want to talk to your parents because you don't want them worried, but how about another adult that you're close with. Also, would you be willing to talk with a counselor about this? It's REALLY important that you find some in person support so you're safe. I'm going to link a number here for you as well so you have some support in the meantime, it's the National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255. They're really great and offer some really great support.
Fluffybunny678
Member # 45780
posted 06-15-2010 12:43 PM
it's not just because i want them to worry, its just like my 3 older brothers smoke pot and all the attention and everything is on them and my sister is one of those really annoying "popular" girls and if i told them i wouldnt want it to seem like i'm doing it for attention because im nott.
Stephanie_1
Member # 36725
posted 06-15-2010 01:39 PM
That's something you can explain to them as well, or they can talk with someone else about. The important thing is finding some support, and getting yourself to a place right now where you are safe, and where you will not be doing something to hurt yourself. If not your parents, how about another adult you know and can trust? It's going to be really important for you to find some in-person support.
Brittanycookie
Member # 47565
posted 06-25-2010 03:28 AM
I know what its like, I used to have a bad cutting problem. My life was amazing but then it just went down hill. I'd like to say that things will get better but i cant read the future. But i know if you patiently wait it out, try to look at the bright side of things, it wouldn't be as hard.
Optimus.Prime
Member # 46654
posted 07-24-2010 10:42 PM
I used to have a really bad cutting problem when I was younger. It got to the point where I was shipped off to therapy every Wednesday for 3 years. What really helped me the most is knowing that someone out there loves you so much and thinks you're the most beautiful person out there. Just try to push through this hard time.