T O P I C R E V I E W
Member # 8524
posted 06-06-2002 10:19 PM
I'm suicidal...let's put it that way. And right now I'm devoid of words. I wrote a will, and a suicide note. Put down my reasons for wanting to die. But..I wanna die, but I don't wanna die, you know? I wanna get help, my friend gave me a number I can call, and they would put me in a hospital, up in Northern Idaho, I would probably be there a week or two. But I don't know...my parents will yell at me, my family will hate me, what do I do?
Member # 5460
posted 06-06-2002 10:30 PM
Simply put, you seek out whatever help you need. If that means being hospitalized, then do it. Trust me, your parents would be far more upset if you actually killed yourself than if you seek help for suicidal depression.
Do get yourself some help, hon. Things do get better, but oftentimes it takes a good bit of help from professionals along the way. Call that hotline, talk to a therapist, see a doctor, do whatever it takes. Your life is worth it.
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Member # 5508
posted 06-06-2002 10:58 PM
Your parents will not yell at you, I promise. Nobody will hate you. You've got to get professional help. You can't afford not to. You are an amazing person, and you have something to say; something to share with the world. I read your poem, and it's just stunning. You're very insightful and intelligent, and you've got potential that most people only dream of.
You said that you wrote the reasons you wanted to die. How about writing the reasons you want to live, the reasons you SHOULD live? And don't lie to yourself, you know you've got a ton of reasons for living.
Please get help. Soon. And keep us posted, ok?
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Member # 3
posted 06-08-2002 07:46 PM
Help is ALWAYS an option when it is avilable to you. Whether or not you choose to get help is something else.
I can assure you that a family will never hate you for saving your life and well-being. They may be confused, alarmed, upset or even angry to discover you've thought of suicide seriously, but they will not hate you for doing everything you can to get help wisely to save your life and heal.
Heather Corinna Editor and Founder, Scarleteen My epitaph should read: "She worked herself into this ground." -- Kay Bailey Hutchinson
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Member # 3741
posted 06-22-2002 10:31 PM
Kid, I know where you are, I've been there. I say go for the hospital. Your parents may not understand and may nag at you for years on end about it. Mine did when I spent a week in the hospital for the same reason. I'd like to say that all parents are equally understanding and wouldn't get mad at you at all in this situation, but that's the way it SHOULD be, not the way it IS.
But you know what? It was worth it. Hospitals, especially mental wards, provide a safe place to meet people who are just like you, and yet so different at the same time. So you don't feel so alone. You make the strangest friends and sometimes begin to see some humor and light in all the pain. You can get the help you need when you leave, because the doctors aren't going to let you go without knowing someone's going to help you.
When I went in, I found someone who was in the same kind of hell I had escaped from months ago: an institution (school) where she was abused emotionally and alienated. I told her how I survived my experience at a similar place and how I managed to get out. We talked for a while over a tape of "Wayne's World".
When I came out, thanks to the people I met, the things I had done, and what I had learned, I felt like I had found a part of myself, a deep, long-lost piece of my personality. And I still have a ways to go. But I don't think I could've made it this far if I hadn't stayed there that one week.
Besides, you often get all the ice cream you can eat and if you're lucky, you can take an ink-blot test, which is actually kind of fun. (okay, I'm just weird, don't ask...
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