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Member # 93204
posted 12-08-2012 03:10 PM
I'm having a hard time with something. M and I, there isn't anything now because of me.
It ate me inside and I needed to tell him, the same week I saw him after meeting him, I saw two other guys, one we fooled around and the other nothing happened and it's no excuse for what I did. I told him... I could see his pain inside. There isn't him and I anymore. I feel horrible. Keeping it from me ate me inside. "Romantically its over between me and u probably. I dont hate u." is what he sent me in one of his text messages. This is hard... I don't remember ever feeling this way for a break-up ever. I feel horrible. On top of everything, I'm looking for another full time job after my work hours for my other job to consume myself in work and I need to save for College and I'm already running into money issues with my job now. How does someone cope with this? I already messed my arm up, not because of the break, just other crap, it was my breaking point.
Member # 90293
posted 12-08-2012 03:26 PM
I'm sorry to hear about this. It's clear that M means a lot to you. Sometimes, things just are going to hurt for a while. That is to say, there is no surefire way to make the hurt go away all at once. That said, if you're hurting yourself physically it sounds like you do need to find some safer coping strategies. What other things have been helpful to you in the past when dealing with things that hurt? I know that you were on a waiting list for counselling that was several months long; it's been a few months since you've spoken of that; has there been any progress? Have you heard how much longer you'll need to wait?
Member # 93204
posted 12-08-2012 03:42 PM
I saw a Psychologist the other day and I see him again in a month. I can see him for 12 sessions.
I have other crap going on... I have a unknown issue with my stomach, been tested for a few things and still being tested, I may have to go under and them doing a scope of my colon/intestines. I get pain to the point I can't move, but it's been getting better. The fact my Grandma is a vegetable in a bed dying and I'm here. Then with money issues which is driving me to get a second full time job. M meant a lot to me. I guess I need to get over it. Besides I am sick and I have to work tomorrow night, overnight. I slept Friday morning till this morning, slept 30 hrs and got up and discovered I can't talk... I'm going crazy since I can't use my own voice. I need to focus on getting better or getting my voice to work.
Member # 90293
posted 12-10-2012 09:59 AM
Sounds like there's a lot of stress indeed. How are you doing today?
Member # 41657
posted 12-10-2012 03:54 PM
Algernon I just wanted to say that it sounds like you're really struggling and suffering at the moment and I hope you're ok, take care.