T O P I C R E V I E W
Member # 34722
posted 08-03-2007 02:03 PM
Gah. I feel like I have to many things to talk about.
For the past 2 0r 3 years, I have suffered from depression. It comes in spells. Usually, at least one week out of each month. This has nothing to do with my period, because the depression will come at any given time. My life is not bad, and never really was. I have no idea as to why I get depressed. I have God in my life, I have great friends, a great family. We are not bad off, and I am generally happy other wise. I dont know if it could be something medical, or if it is just psychological. When I get depressed, I do not get suicidal. I will not get suicidal. Its just that I sometimes get overly frustrated and aggravated at things that I could deal with. For example, if I am thirsty and want milk, and find that I have none, this makes me depressed. If I am carrying something and drop it, I get depressed. If I want to take a shower and there is no hot water, I get depressed. No one that I am close to really knows how things upset me the way they do. I mostly keep this from everyone for the fact that I believe I can get over this without medication and without anyones knowledge of it even existing. I am concerned that I may have to be put on medication, and I do not want that. I know what it feels like to be dependent on pills for I was once addicted to Oxycontin. I promised myself a year ago that I would not be put on any kind of pill unless I absolutely needed it. So if anyone has any advice for me, I would surely appreciate it. A website, an idea of why I am this way, or an encouraging word or two would help. If I am not clear on anything here, just ask..
Member # 1207
posted 08-03-2007 03:36 PM
As someone who has suffered from depression for 7+ years, i really know where you're coming from. I resisted medication and counseling at first too ... And i suffered for it. I thought it would go away, or i could just fix it on my own, and it didn't happen. I eventually decided that none of it was worth it. I would rather be happy and on medication than depressed and doing it alone. Have you spoken to a counselor about this? Been to any support groups? The biggest thing i have found that has been beneficial for me is to keep busy. I work four 12hr days, and then have five off and i find the five off can be HORRIBLE if i'm not filling them w/ something. Clean the house, visit friends, volunteer here at Scarleteen ... Just always keep busy. You could look for volunteer opportunities in your area. Are you working? Ask for overtime, and then you can splurge on your days off I would strongly suggest that you not go at this alone though ... It didn't work for me, and it doesn't work for the majority of people i know either.
Member # 34722
posted 08-04-2007 02:35 PM
Can depression be cured and overcome without medication? I mean, I really dont want to have to be on meds. Its like, I feel as if I am on something strong, that I will be addicted to pills again. I overcame addiction. Why cant I overcome depression?
Last night, it got worse. I ended up drinking all night just so I would be in a good mood. I know that I shouldnt have done that, but it was all I could do. It seems as tho the only thing that keeps me from being depressed is when I have my friends around. But I cant keep someone by my side all of my life. That isnt going to help in the long run.
Member # 1207
posted 08-04-2007 03:56 PM
I'm sure in some instances, depression can be overcome without medication. I am not saying for sure that you even need medication, i am saying that you need to speak to your doctor or a therapist about this. Even if you choose to go without medication, you shouldn't be doing this without professional help.
Doing things like 'drinking all night' leads me to believe that you could be a danger to yourself ... Even if suicide isn't what you're after, you could end up with alcohol poisoning or in an accident that wouldn't have happened had you been in the right state of mind. You need professional help. If, before you can get to see your doctor or therapist, you get to that point again, you need to call a crisis hotline. This website as a national hotline as well as hotlines in your area. They should also be able to help you find other resources (like a therapist) in your area.
Member # 34722
posted 08-04-2007 04:57 PM
Okay, I followed that link and I still didnt get the info I need.
First, are suicidal thoughts supposed to come from depression? And I do not have feelings of worthlessness. I dont have suicidal thoughts. I love myself. Second, if there is a possibility that what I am suffering from is not depression, and just acts like it, could you give me a site that may help? I feel as tho none of what I just said makes any sense..