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Member # 20075
posted 02-01-2007 10:21 AM
I think I may be developing some sort of an eating disorder, though I don't think it would be considered anorexia or bulimia (sp?).
This past year  a lot of crazy, stressful things happen to me [parents' divorce, 3 year relationship ended, father moving out of the house, depression & anxiety attacks, etc] & during those times, I found that because I was so upset & overwhelmed, I wasn't eating as much, due to a nervous stomach & just not wanting to eat, period. There were days where I wouldn't eat much at all, days where I felt nauseous with a loss of appetite & then, days where I felt like I was just starving. Basically, my mood for food & an appetite varied in big ways. I feel like I lost a lot of weight because of this. Now it's been over a year & because I've been so used to eating the way I have, I can't stop. Maybe this isn't a cause for alarm, but it offends & sometimes scares others around me who aren't used to seeing a person eat oatmeal & a banana & call that breakfast & lunch. I get teased most of the time & picked at for the way I eat. Also, it doesn't help that I'm 5'6'' & 107 pounds. People think I'm starving myself, & sometimes, self-consciouslly I think I am as well. Also, I have this weird anxiety when going out to eat dinner at a restuarant. I hate eating out, simply because I don't feel comfortable. I feel that there are too many people, the restuarant is crowded & loud. I usually get myself so worked up that I begin to get anxious & can't finish my food. Even if I am starving, the moment I sit down at the table, I feel anxious & can't finish my dinner. I feel like this is some form of social anxiety that I wish I could get past. Any advice?
Member # 11569
posted 02-01-2007 06:39 PM
Depression and anxiety can have a big effect on our eating habits - either as a way of controlling something in our lives when we feel like everything else is out of control (which is how many EDs begin) or simply because depression can have a physiological effect on us. Have you spoken with a doctor about your issues with social anxiety, and difficulty getting into a healthy eating pattern?
Something that you can start to do now that may help get you into a more regular schedule is eating something for breakfast every morning - it jumpstarts your metabolism, and should get your stomach going by lunchtime so that you'll want to eat then as well. It can be something small, like a couple pieces of toast with peanut butter, or a banana and cereal, but eating breakfast helps a lot.
Member # 20075
posted 02-01-2007 11:31 PM
I haven't spoken to a doctor about this, no. I had one therapy session & talked about it briefly there, but never went back so I haven't mentioned it since.
As I've said, it may be nothing at all. It's amazing to me how society views those who are "skinny." I think that is really the trouble I am having. I worry too much about what others may or may not be thinking. People are often really concerned about the way I look. It was never a problem before until more & more, people started making it an issue. Now, I feel, it's become an obsession of mine.
Member # 8067
posted 02-02-2007 06:47 AM
It's actually relatively common for social anxiety disorders to cause difficulty eating in public. But it's really not something you can "fix" on your own.
So if that therapist didn't work out - time to look for another one. It's amazing to me how society views those who are "skinny." The thing is that being underweight past a certain point really is unhealthy, and it does sound as if you're under a normal weight for your height. And at any weight, oatmeal and a banana doesn't provide the "fuel" equivalent of two actual meals. So I'm not surprised that people are concerned. It may not count as a full-blown eating disorder, but it certainly sounds like you've developed some very unhealthy eating patterns, quite probably related to all the stress and depression you're dealing with. I remember you've also mentioned being a survivor of a sexually abusive relationship - it's not unusual for that to exacerbate body issues and eating issues, and trauma can make you more vulnerable to other stresses. I'd say that it's really time to talk to a doctor about the whole picture - depression, anxiety, eating issues, the lot. You deserve to get some support to get a handle on this. And the sooner you tackle something like this, the easier it is to get back into healthier eating habits. [ 02-02-2007, 02:35 PM: Message edited by: logic_grrl ]