Member # 48854
posted 08-30-2012 11:47 PM
I am brand-new to college and got to attend my very first GSA meeting ever.
It was brilliant. (This is my first chance to work through my feelings, actually, so if I get rambly, that's why. And there's a good chance I'll be teary-eyed by the time I post this, because I get emotional over anything, including happy stuff). It's just...I always feel so out of it. I have met literally four LGBT people face to face that I knew were LGBT at the time. My mom's ex-husband and a boy from my writing camp were gay. One of the teachers at that camp was a lesbian, though I only found out after camp had ended. And my best friend is a lesbian. That's it. Suddenly, I'm sitting in a room with about 20-30 other people, most of whom at least have an idea of what I'm going through. People are joking around and one boy mentioned falling in love over the summer and there was a group "awwwwww". There was a chinese lesbian couple there and I know this because when naming the highlight of their summer, one said it was taking their girlfriend to China to meet her family, the other said going to China with her girlfriend to meet her family. It was very sweet and it's just so...wow. Everyone is just so comfortable and it's incredibly strange because I've never been somewhere like that. In general summary though- I had a wonderful time. I laughed and 'awww'-ed and knitted during the entire thing because when I'm nervous my body sends huge amounts of adrenaline into the system, because my body is an idiot who can't tell terrified nervous from meeting a whole bunch of new people in a new place, but happy about it nervous. I can react by twitching, jumping up and running out of the room, or fidgeting with knitting stuff. The first is strange, I'd regret the second, so I went with the third. I talked to one girl who had a Harry Potter shirt on (yay, fandoms! Always something to talk about). I felt normal. It was great. And because my school is ridiculous and has a rivalry with another large college in the state, and *they* have a Coming-Out Week event instead of the day that we have... The leaders of the GSA are currently planning Coming-Out MONTH. Who knew? Sports rivalries affect everyone. I felt it would be rude to giggle. I'm really gonna have to learn how to care about sports.